It Feels Like Heavy On Head But Nasi Lemak Should Be Making Me Healthy?
I wonder if I will take O-Level Next Year, my Family doesn't talk about it after I said about it in family Whatsapp group, I wonder why they didn't continue, is it I don't have to take O-Levels because I can get a Hacking Job? What will be happening to my life?
It's unhealthy if I think of jobclub while can't do it yet, I wonder what should I do, maybe it's the only best path in life and I shouldn't have tried applied for a job that psychic would stop me from working? Is it dream or reality? It's like my memories of M.R.T. Is it Catatonia?
I Feel Like Dying My Hair Already, I Think It's Time To Dye Tomorrow or Today Even, I Really Got Nothing To Do. Why Doctors Stopped Me From Hacking Hobby Isn't What I Do When I Hack Actually Funny Just That If Have Babies Would Be Bad, Or Even Kids Maybe?
I don't know how to get in touch with them anymore, it's like someone actually called the Police saying I Hack instead, can't be psychic suddenly knowing the location? But it's secret of psychic? Is it someone knew of my hacking then became jealous of it?
My life is so boring I can't continue hacking life, computer hacks been fun of my life, I know it's Anhedonia causing the boredom that suddenly it feels like no pleasure because it's too easy. Why is doctor like this? It's not something that people always do.
I've been thinking of what to buy using my $10 Voucher, like 2 drinks 1.5L is $4.60, then the rest is unknown price like Chilli Tuna will require to cook rice, Ice Cream Tub have no Space in Freezer, then I imagine Syrup, it's the end of money, I just want to buy a red bull to drink and hangout outside. Then I Imagine 1.5L $2.30 + $1.10 Redbull is $3.40 Then Buying Other Stuff Like What Though? Super Bored Like Nothing To Do Daily, It Makes Me Feel Like Just Going For Rango Loh's Job on 12.12, I Really Want To Do It and Just Require Enough Sleep, It's Only 1 Day. Why feeling so Poor like Crazy Is Let Be In My Family? Why They Don't Help Me At All About Feeling Nicer In Life?
What Makes Life Like This, Isn't What Happened At O.C.B.C Is Plan Of Doctor? Is it a Dream? Why Does This Happen To Me? What Kind Of Hack Didn't I See The Resource Hacker Program & Icon Too? Isn't it Like My Break-Up This Life Mess Like Someone Did Something To My Hearing Senses Making Me Hear Stuff At First? I Don't Think People Actually Cares At All As Believe I'm Insane Shouldn't Be With Anyone Maybe, I Have Nobody.
I think it's voices-memories of crazy people talking that I'm listening getting me this kind of energy again, to write and imagine, maybe I'm actually someone that's ever-insane?
So isn't it to make me more unhealthy telling me to work? I wonder.
Life is stupid I think, just medication said as enough then they add "work too", then my life of hacking I suddenly stopped, isn't it something nice, is it to suspect The CripperZ Leader called the police but Psychic Answered Instead? Then why are they still letting me this kind of feelings? But Didn't Doctor Tell Of (A) Before she even exist in my Life? Means it's really Psychic's Knowledge! Why I can hear schizophrenic's voices as memories?! It's like I was under-attack in I.M.H by voices too then I lost memory too.
There's like no recovery, feeling sad and clueless about my life, like wonder why people tell me to work when I'm lovesick such thing. Like why my life have stopped for 17 years?
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