I remembered that I ever bought microphone and broke the stand on my first day of buying it, then I was too happy I kept losing my memories and became unstable, thinking a karaoke feeling will happen again into my life, then in the end gave to orang kampung due to my instability, schizophrenia made me like that, this time I did not break the item, maybe I didn't take too much medicine and following doctor's order, also I didnt skip medicine. It's a happy feeling getting a karaoke feeling on Android then it is free, it is definitely fun, even television can stream it but then there will be no microphone, it's really a heavy life like a poor guy excited because of cheap stuff(now it's cheap) like this.
I'm happy I got an idea to stream just music on my TikTok thanks to Zoe Lim's TikTok made me discover about karaoke. It will be fun hopefully I will gain friends instead of enemies just because of singing, I know it will sound bad secretly because as a smoker it makes voice shorter breath, I'm excited about the wait for microphone, today is Saturday, tomorrow is Sunday, then 4 more days of it, hoping it reaches on 1st June but too bad for me I guess, Sunday they can't take it. It's so long the pleasure to feel in life I just want something back into my life, and it's hopefully not the same feeling like RG477V, suddenly anhedonic and can't have fun playing games. I think my life hopefully can become different especially when I start studying this August or even October, I really dont know when I will buy O level books, probably June.
It will be a long journey of 2 years to estimate A level included to pass then the 3rd year enter university, it's really just nice 2029 enter university maybe if I pass or score well. It's really a heavy waiting but then I remember 19th June may have surprise from my friends to give me money, but it's been so long ago then I don't know if true at all too. So the special days are 19th June, 29th June(not warded again), July month(because first time experiencing July), August(because first time experiencing NDP outside after so many years).
It's harsh my life experiences I really don't know when counsellor will talk to me, I feel like emailing my blog but I assume they read somehow, I really need Club Heal to know too but then it's almost 1000 posts to read then it's just too much really just need to use search engine like "Alysha or Alisha" then find the writings that way, it's crazy I wrote of her a lot yet to understand as she don't read as it means she don't give me any penalty money for both me and Dina, it's really just weird her actions like a crazy person that tried to cause me to suicide, get away then didn't get punished, and she didn't use her initiative to pay me and Dina money. What a freak.
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