The next injection going to be 6th July, then it's going to be a road to my first time celebrating my 1st sister's birthday this year, her 46 years old then I'm finally recovering.
This year will a happy feeling but I don't know what will make me happy, doctor said that I'm going to be happiest age at 38 years old, it means that 20th June 26 - 18th June 27, something good going to happen to my life, I wonder what is it? Will I become a soldier for real?
Yesterday I fall down the stairs of my home, then my back shoulder in pain, it's really bad luck continuously happening into my life, I really don't know why it's like this.
I hope 19th June I will recover, because last year I didn't take medications in June onwards I think, it's really bad life experience I wonder why it's like that, just now I saw someone that kept being warded every year then wonder if this year he going to be warded again, maybe he will?
I see that he have people with him so I didn't ask for his number and I don't know if he remembers me too, every year in ward within 29th June - 15 August I will see him, then this year my first year not seeing those people that usually enters ward around the same date I would enter. Hahaha, I'm so happy I'm growing up be a recovered person. I wonder about my happiness if Alysha will be happy as she definitely tried to ruin my heart and mind, I really don't understand why she disturb my vision of "life", it's really bad act, then I don't know if she's satisfied if I become a recovered person 1 day. I watch videos that it takes schizophrenic 5 years to recover, then I don't know about myself, if I will recover sooner or not? I hope so hahaha.
Hope Wahdiah or Shahridah comes back into my life anyway. I really feel bored like crazy, my mental strength is not good without a lover supporting me, I don't know why none of them support me.
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