Monday, June 8, 2026

Saw the negro again

Don't know why he follow me, I wonder what he got from me in the past, hidup dia menyusahkan orang je mtk free rokok, macam tinggal sini, pakaian dia nari ada beg, entah2 dia jual barang tak? Or jual dadah?

Suspicious character but freedom kind of life, I guess it means no police look at my blog, seeing that guy in freedom now.

Today I feel like wanting to study O level again, I became healed from coldness of ice dew, I hope this energy keeps remaining alive in me, I really want to do well for my O level.

Today my energy is really RG477V in bus or listening to music while on the way to I.M.H, I really just about to have a life now, it's June already I can't wait to reach 15 August and 29th June, the end of I.M.H cycle finally happening to me, then I wonder if doctor will take me up for talks, will I get money if join any talks of schizophrenic that doesn't need to go ward anymore? I'm really happy about it.

I haven't seen my schizophrenic neighbours for some time, I wonder about what voices they hear or what kind of things they see - for my schizophrenia I usually see Sakinah staring at me while thinking she's my soulmate, maybe Alysha created me to believe she's my soulmate then if I don't get her, she's really bad, I hope I recover from this "missing feelings", it's deep and really makes me sad like I can't get her, who shes going to be with, who is going to touch her body or skin, etc. I'm worried sick but I guess its love sick. I really can't do anything about missing her at all.

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