February 2026 Ending

It felt really fast, next month is in 3 days, then I work again on 2nd March and 5th March, I feel like nothing and it was quick, I really hope I maintain like this and become stronger in life. Maybe I get money on 2nd March but maybe I don't know hopefully tomorrow, just to feel myself as a lot of money. I'm sad I'm poor life while others have been achieving highly in life, I'm definitely left behind for so long and people maybe have own houses already, it's weird that Sakinah or Shahridah didn't buy own house or even Wahdiah didn't too, it's weird calling Aby by her name too, haha. I feel better writing names then the last one I can remember that gave me a peaceful feeling is Lyanie, my B.M.C Classmate, I ever wanted her to take O-level with me again but I loss contact with her, I remember her last wish is I work at Popeyes again but I remember it's maybe Pallet job as something true, maybe it's not Popeyes after all.

During B.M.C doctor ever told my classmate that I will work something that starts with letter "P". Hahaha, doctor really making me clueless of what it is on purpose, it's so annoying I really want to see Psychic power, maybe I really will become Psychic at 38 years old as story of doctor is actually something like Risperidone for 1 Year will become a Psychic, then the fastest is 1 Month, I will suddenly know what to do to get my Soulmate, something like that, but I don't know if it's true, I really hope it's true that I will get Psychic power, another story of Doctor is I will become a Wali Allah at 38 years old, I really hope it's true too then it means I will become a Psychic at the same time. I wonder what power of Wali Allah is, I really feel like it's doctor that's been telling stuff to Wali Allah to tell others then seem real of having powers, I remember an Ustaz say that all orang2 beriman are Wali Allah, it's weird to believe something like that it is hard, I thought it's something special? Means by 80 years old at least people will become Wali Allah? Then it's meaningless effort then if I told Sakinah if she and Iman have a baby her son will be Wali Allah, the thing is I didn't tell her if I have Baby with her my Son will become Wali Allah too, but a Psychic And Wali Allah is what doctor said.

I feel sad that Lyanie didn't let me enjoy the peaceful feelings, I remembered that when she's around I feel peaceful too, it's like Wahdiah and Shahridah, but especially Sakinah is like Magical, but Lyanie didn't seem like someone that will become my steady. I remembered like a girl named as Farah looking like Lyanie then I wonder if it's a dream or not, it's weird my memories are like this but I remembered I ever sold her phone, bicycle, etc. maybe it's not a dream after all. Means I loss Farah thinking she's Lyanie and I thought I ever steady with Lyanie due to them looking alike. But then its okay maybe it's my schizophrenia and dreams too, I wonder why I feel like this, it's the most odd feelings if I ever will stead with Lyanie, she's different like a happy person while I'm like a sad life person, it's weird I became like anyhow messaging her in the past, but that's what doctor said that I will marry 4 person, Lyanie will claim as my best friend instead.

I prefer hiding (R)'s name due to complications and misunderstanding but she's the only one that ever visited me when I'm sick out of hospital 1 day it was like that, I think it feels like Last Year or Last 2 Years. Why Wahdiah, Shahridah and Sakinah didn't visit me? Even every Hari Raya they don't miss me at all?

Anyway My RG477V is on the way to Singapore, I'm happy about it I hope I will be around to pick it at my door, it's hard and worrying like if they send someone knocking door instead of leaving outside house because it's still safe.