Day 197(245 on medications)

Today tak puasa I ate medicine late around 9+a.m, it's weird my mother told me not to eat medicine but I feel it is important instead, I really don't know what's wrong with her because wanting me sick to not eat medications.

My Simba data usage: 1.90gb/400gb.

My Ayatul Kursi necklace is on the way already it's finally something new to feel in life. Yesterday I dreamt of Ayatul Kursi necklace anyway, I wonder what it means.

Today my head feels like shaking then I assume it's because of no medicines yet or just not smoking for long hours, I really wonder what's wrong. Today my parents maybe buka puase at my 1st Sister's house then I really don't know what I'm eating later.

Don't know what happened yesterday I wrote name of my B.M.C classmate about my dreams it's like real the girl name is Farah instead that I thought I met Lyanie, but then it feels like a dream too, I really wonder where my bicycle went then if I didn't sell to the girl at that time, and my phone too. Wonder why I dream of being steady with Lyanie anyway, it's weird like something just weird hahaha. It's a weird dream if it's a dream, I really don't know why I can mix up dreams and reality, schizophrenia is really bad that it happens like that, to become dreaming of what people speak then it becomes a story of my life, nobody really help me to think what happened in my life, I remember I sold 3/4 pants and 6 Longsleeves too, also a fishing equipment, it means it really happened that a girl named Farah pretending as Lyanie because I thought I met Lyanie then calling her Lyanie, then she didn't tell her real name for so long in the short relationship, the girl have schizophrenia too and weird me to talk to a random girl outside because of mistaking it as someone else.

Don't know why my family didn't remind me what happened, I'm sure she came over to my house to buy my stuff that I sell, it's weird that I don't remember or think of it as a dream.

I'm now just waiting for my RG477V and Ayatul Kursi necklace to reach then I will be happy it's finally a different life experience happening to my life. I have also received a message from I.M.H research that it will happen on 9 February then it's around 2.5-3hours long but it's for $100 I think it's worth it. Need to give my blood sample and buccal swab for D.N.A stuff. I really hope I go through it smoothly.