Just now I ate Pepperoni Chicken Pizza $3.20 from Swee Heng Breadshop, and bought $1.10 Redbull, I'm happy I feel energetic and got my Redbull again, if in Malaysia it would be hard to eat in public, but we're in Singapore there's no problem about it, but I remember an Old Man ever drank at coffee shop then masuk Berita Harian because tak puasa, so I really don't know about Singapore. People don't really care anyway.
I'm happy that I would have ALMOST $900 still left once I get my Research money which is $100, I'm so excited that I hope Research actually works to finding the recovery to be faster. I'm really happy it's the 2nd week also, then maybe it's considered as Mid March and I will get my job too, but I think it's on 12 March maybe.
I really don't know where the story of me going U.S.A for A-levels but I guess it's 39 or 40 years old then that will happen if true, why is doctor hiding my job, what is the job that starts with letter "P" if confirmed not Popeyes? Is it really a Pallet job? I'm so happy if it is, because I remember I heard it's going to be easy just lifting stuff and pasting label on items. I really wonder what is the truth because of mix up of information by Alisha, life wouldve been nicer if she was not around during information-flow. What if "P" stands for Platoon, I will become a Soldier? Hahaha. I'm so happy if true, they should find me a proper job that's for my age then I can become a soldier, even if working as Guards Duty I will be happy because soldier is definitely a stable job.
I'm happy my brother asked me if I bought anything using the $1000 he gave, I told him I spent on buying Anbernic RG477V then he told me there's Nintendo Switch for sale at Causeway Point for around $289 I think, 2nd Hand. Means he don't mind me spending money on games at all, I'm so lucky he made me feel lighter in my heart by asking me that.
I'm excited that work is in 3 days, today as Friday then I have rest on Saturday and Sunday, I assume Sakinah will be going home today and spend time with her niece, she's lucky to have a happy life but as my soulmate that don't feel like me, like magical, it's hard I cant really tell her it's true that I love her. Means she maybe don't understand what love means for me, and maybe find me as a schizophrenic that randomly says love, like someone that tells it to other girls too. I ever had ex girlfriends that's successful in life is proof that my mental can be normal too, means I somehow can still get my life to be normal thinking. Its really harsh like I wonder if Sakinah thinks I'm crazy and just saying it randomly, means she don't trust my love as the definition itself and I understand it like 1+1=2, that it's really Love.
I wonder how she can live her life without helping me remember back what happened and conversations between me and her, and let me be thinking I have never talked to her since Kindergarten days(we never talk too as I was too shy to tell her that I love her), something I loss memory about.
I really don't know when's my next chance of talking to her again, I really hope I take my driving license soon too, maybe after I get a job in mid March or April, I think the latest is I get a job by May, the point is once I work something I will earn more than $1000/mth already and I would be fine by then, I really hope I become luckier in job matters and truly hope it's not McDonalds.
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