What's making people appear in my life if not redirection by someone? Is Plato really a Schizophrenic Hive, means I truly have no one to chat with?
There's definitely something happened that causes a life to become abnormal, a kind of status view on person that everyone decided to keep quiet about instead, then become having nobody because of schizophrenia as not understood. They(other schizophrenics) should just not be silly so others don't get judged as the same, but life's luck really bad schizophrenic really maybe misunderstood as Insane but shop functions like normal means it's not understood as Insane but normal too. People wonder what we feel after our schizophrenic moments maybe?
What kind of status or profile have happened to someone schizophrenic that other schizophrenics maybe don't know? Why is it taking so long for something to be told to someone schizophrenic? Like stories or hear-says in public. If Stalker exist secretly different life situation than what's happening or maybe not the cause of what's happening?
Like there's no gathering of information for me what people heard about me, like life meant to be like this in a lot of thinking but if I ever have exes means it's normal life still exist in my life. I wonder why it's like this taking so much time to feel normal. The sounds of Saw Machine like a statement already proves schizophrenia still happens to someone on medication.
But isn't what happening like a cutout away from life? It's more than 17 years "okay to suffer" isn't it like a punishment instead, but taking medication is the way? The alternative like spending on food is not thought about? People don't know what to do just my life thinking someone remembers me?
What should I do if I can't work? Should I be outside more often then be back home when my mother's asleep? She don't understand schizophrenia as hard to work is like a lie too, doctors definitely have told if can/cannot work?
I really became having no life, I really need to increase mental strength for this life, I wonder when it will start in my life? If it takes time relying on medications, doctor really knew 38 years old I will heal, with solution as "just take medicine", I really can't get many shortcuts in life like knowing what I don't hear also? Then I have to guess what's happening?
Then life like voice-senders exist have to be let be? It's like memory inside machines tune into a statement by the tones making up vocabularies. I don't know why there's still a bit of panic feelings, it's maybe because of the restlessness. Stories like I will meet my Soulmate again 1 day but I wonder why but happy about it too.
What did I cause trouble to someone's life? Normal life still can exist/happen maybe, nobody tells stuff I just need to learn how to become normal again.
I need to Bicycle again even if just for awhile? It's hard to believe everyone really living their own life and not thinking about me at all.
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