Saturday, November 8, 2025

Like a Hybrid Dream

Schizophrenia is really like a Mix of Dream and Reality Combined, It Makes Me Think Like I'm A Foetus So Many Times - Just Now Saw Something Round When I Close My Eyes Awhile, Don't It Make Me Think I'm Projected Images? It's like "Kuih Bomb" Anyone Knows Why My Eyes Like This?

I Really Think of My Soulmate A lot Like How Years Have Passed By And I'm Still Living Like This, I Really(In Heart) Thinks Like People Trying To Give Me Heartache In Plato Secretly Have Someone Ready, I Don't Know Why Too.

Today I Feel Like Eating Chicken Chop With Tomato Rice To Feel A Life. I Also Think Of Cig. as Addictive To Quit, I Imagine School Next Year and What if My Soulmate Copies What I Buy, She Would Waste Money? I Hope For A Normal Heartbeat, The Stress of Cig. is Like Real. I Ate My Pills At 7.40A.M Today I Think It's Still Fine and Around Same Timing As I.M.H.

I Think Of Solat And Doa Iftitah as Not So Important To Remember Yet, It Calms Me Down And I Think When I'm Going To Be Well To Be Learning Mandarin Language Again. It Truly Feels Like Soldier Job Actually Don't Exist, But If Exist It's December This Year, I Don't Know Why Doctors Don't Just Remind Me When Is It? I Really Want To Feel Happy Knowing Future. Is It I Will Ask To Quit Jobclub and Just Work Soldier A.S.A.P?

I'm Goaling For Eye Focus Like Quit Cig., My Mind Became Lightweight and My Rest Increases But I Think It Will Become A lot of Boredom Again in Life and Thinking What To Do In Life.

I Wish Doctors Tell Me Why My Eyesight is Like This Too, Isn't It Schizophrenia But Why It's Like Making Me Believe I'm A Foetus Being Projected Images and Videos? I Know I Would Recover at 38 Years Old The Duration To It Is Quite Long Boredom?

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