Feeling To Just Wait

Just waiting for Schedules are my Only Life Left, I really have nothing to Do, Plato can be quite offensive then remembering they could be schizophrenic too or criminals that they would create an attack-statement.

I try creating a plan that all schizophrenics try ask doctor to regard Anhedonia as other illness so maybe we can recover faster from the happiness. They really maybe in a panic of people knowing that they are schizophrenic could be? Just my luck my idea is so good I hope they read it and do it, or someone who likes to copy my writing copies it and paste again and again like a spam.

Why can we feel like nothing on our favourite things to do? Why is it like that? It's definitely Anhedonia and could be the cause of worsening our mental sickness.

I did not really get support but like a paranoia response, because I claim people don't take medications, maybe caused panic and was told about Injection instead. Like why people don't want to recover faster?

There's nobody normal in Plato. There's no normal chat, it's just offensive to heart if they are nice only at first. Really have nobody in life.

Is life of a Hacker like this too? But they are not schizophrenics to be Alone everytime, why are they alone? I'm different, people think they black magic me causing me having no actual friends at all.

The anger rises in me when they are not supportive of how to settle schizophrenia, paranoid maybe because did not take medication secretly then they feel doctors knew only if because of me, doctors are psychic they definitely knew first but life just have to be like that.

I don't know what I should do, life flow is just wake and sleep, eat shower rest at sofa, walk around continuously at home, really my life is boring then if there's no jobclub I'm like a lazy person instead of people understanding that I can't work, it rests topic from starting, I wonder why they like to hurt my feelings or make me feels hot or angry in my heart, like a heart-attack or panic-creation. They definitely lie they don't know after doing such thing? I don't understand what it's for. I think need like an anger support pills, is it like Prozac or Xanax even I imagine, it's a waste of time to be angry, nobody likes Angry Feelings.