I Remember Life Just Have To Be Going With Whatever Flow I'm Going Through As It's Like Desiring Someone To Change Their Action Without Knowing Me First, Means I Can't Get My Soulmate Without Effort, I Always Believed Soulmate Knows Each Other Without Effort.
I Can't Bear Going Through This Life Like Nothing, Then Imagining Amos Yee's Way of Talk Or My Schizophrenic Moments, People's Thinking Of Me Could Be Something Bad Secretly, I Wonder Why People Care About Me If They Do, Is It Because of Schizophrenia is Actually Understood Of What It Is?
Imagining Cleaning Training, Like A Poor Man, To Go Through It Instead of Normal Job or Relaxing and Focus On Medications First, Body Exercises Really That Important To Doctor I Guess As Made Me Think Of This Alot. I Don't Know How I Can Be Strong To Go Through This... Plato Have People Adding Me That I Think Are Fake Girls Using Photos Of Girls To Dig My Way Of Chat, I Didn't Accept The Friend Request. I Think Some I.M.H Patients Really Spying Me Anyway Somehow Accidentally Bumping Into Me At Plato or Even Super Mech Bot Chatroom. It's Just Too Familiar Like Ever In My Memory.
I Wonder Why Psychic Would Tell Me I'm Fine This Way, Like No Explanation Why It's Okay After What I Have Written In Public Chatroom, I Don't Know Luck Is Like That.
I Also Don't Know How I Can Recover From Thinking Of (S) Too Much, To Believe "She's Attached" Ever Made Me Loss Memory Multiple-Times, But I Didn't Shake My Head Continuously Proving Not Denial About It. I Don't Know Why She's Okay Just Knowing About Me In Her Life Like This. Shouldn't We Spend Time Together As Soulmates? I think yesterday night I felt I Only Have 1 Soulmate and It's (S), I Don't Know Why Others Maybe Lied To Me Stuff, They([W] and [A]) Left Me Quite Easily And It's Surprising To Me. I Live A Normal Life After They Left Me Meeting (R) after that (A), (W) Was First. I Really Have Nobody in Life That Think Properly For Me And I Go Through This Life Like An Independent Man.
Success Wishes Didn't Happen, Energy From P.M Lawrence Wong That "We" In Pledge Should Be Our Actions And Thinking Of Soldiers Makes Me Think If I'm Like A Small Kindergarten Wanting To Be Soldiers Kind Of Attitude In Views Of Others, About Living A Successful Life In Country. It Means Caring Country In A Way To Not Mess It Up? I Was Looking At Speeches Of P.M Lawrence Wong Yesterday. Just Happy How G.S.T and Assurance Package Exist, He Made Me Feel Like Gotten Simba Card 400GB Data To Use Monthly For Only $10/Mth, It's Really Like A Life's Jackpot The Idea Of P.M Lawrence Wong. I Hope He Create Singapore To Become A bit Like Australia Getting Money Monthly From The Government.
It's Hard How Life Without In Contact With Anyone, The Silence Is Really Too Much, Voices Comes and Goes Like A Memory-Playback, If Flashback is Like A Blink of an Eye, Playback is Like a Recorder Instead. I Wish There's Some Technique Schizophrenics Can Share, Then I Wonder Why I'm Recovering 38 Years Old Then Others Are Not Recovering Next Year Then? Recovery Imagination Also Made Me A Happiness Like Having Simba 400GB Data Plan.
The End Of Life Is Only If Doctors Sabotage and Made To Be Doing Bad Work, But Doctors Understood Spikes and The Theory of Cancer - Like Why It's Physical Pain(Heat In Heart) can Be Stabilized By Mental Medicine? Isn't it to Just Stabilize The Heat Causing Me Less Schizophrenic?
Will Doctor Force My Theory Into Practice: Very Low Voltage at Head Size Like Brain's Voltage To Be At Head As A Device To Connect The Split/Disconnected Memories/Mind From Our Thinking? Like It Can Really Happen Like That.
I Hope Doctors Discover A Way To Recover Schizophrenia Faster Than The Said 38 Years Old.
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