4 months of Happiness

129 Days Streak Imagination or it's 130 Days As Fact Taking Medication, End of November and December It Became 5 & 6 Months On Medication, But I Remember It's 30 June I Was Warded.

The Only Peace is Really Writing Left - Scoring 2 For English at N-Level Definitely Effort of Writing A lot Too. Zikir That Time Was Whole Day & Night Causing Zikir Like Waste Of Time But Isn't it the only Way To Become Wali Allah? I Just Keep Trying To Be It. I Don't Know Why Somehow It's Like The End Is Not Really Close To Me. I keep hearing statements from sounds of Saw(to cut Trees) like "Anas Schizophrenia ke Tak?" It's Weird Voices In Sounds of Saw Machine, I really can't do anything my Hearing Senses is Really Like That.

I Feel Like Insanity is Real Then Imagined If My Reasons Of False-Memory that Taking Medications Gives Heat, I Wouldn't Take Medication Being Supported Causing A lot Of Bad Belief/Thoughts To Exist? Does My Family Understands Me At All Does Doctor Tell My Family About Me? I Just Hope Doctors Support Me Truly.

Isn't it Insane Like Thinking Milo is Creation of Israel then To Not Drink It If It's Healthy? Doesn't Israel Eat Vegetables Too That They Know Milo As Healthy? I'm just thinking about the Boycott Movement to McDonalds, K.F.C, Milo, F&N, It Don't Make Sense Such Deliciousness Is To Be Wasted? They are Halal Doesn't it Mean It's Nothing Wrong? Why Like Have Voice-Senders of What I Buy, I Then Imagined Being Binocular or Telescope of What I Buy In Shop.

The Ideas Of Others Are Like Killing My Peace If It's Against A Healthy Feeling. Life is just supposed to be like "Not Too Much Gassy Drinks" And Healthiness Still Exist That Way. Wonder Why They Monitor To Rule My Life Like Hinting Vocabs In My Imaginations In Many Version of "Petunjuk", Kan Perangai Lain Anyway? They Seem To Like Angry Writings I Think.

Who Reads I Still Have No Idea - If It's Really Neighbours Then There's No Information Like Such, We All Know Chatrooms Are All Not Neighbours Anyway. It's Just My Luck That This Kind Of Things Happened. Writings are meant for people to understand things.

I Realize That Even Taking Medication The Anger Can Still Exist, The Pain Of Anger Still Can Happen, It's Just Unfair How Others Don't Understand The Pain Exist But Knowing "To Just Take Medication" They Then Have Painful-Creation Statements Like Common Sense To Be Repeated To Me.

Wonder why they digging my life to appear writings could be the secret or else I would be in higher pain if don't write anything.