Maybe it's true I will work here 1 month? Why I didn't feel it just now? I felt like quitting just now, then I remember tomorrow is 1 day left then it's 2 off days, I hope I bond with my colleagues more as 1 talk about playing card games every Saturday or Sunday, means maybe they asking me along? But then I maybe misheard and it's language barrier, because they didn't speak English clearly. 1 didn't speak Malay clearly too even if Malay. Haha.
It's weird my supervisor asked me if I'm Islam, I forgot to tell my name have "Muhammad". Hahaha. I wear Ayatul Kursi necklace just now then it's weird I don't look Islamic maybe? It's like a repeat question of the past, I wonder if they got scripted by doctors, I hope it's a nice future for me, like a good working place with nice colleagues, I'm comfortable working even with short sleeve can see the tail of my tattoos. I plan to work hard but then I don't know the feelings built inside me just now maybe too much stress was building up at the end of the job, I feel happy cleaning and going back home at 7.30p.m, I hope I survive tomorrow and continuously until May.
When I think again, it's only 6 hours, then it's $1600, why can't they just let me have my life in a nicer way, Hisyammuddin was supported when he work, means he got plenty of cash to support him, but my family didn't support me, even my mother talk of needing money in future just now, they didn't give me Hari Raya money since babies days but then can give others Hari Raya money, then mother talk like a poor person, it's weird I just have to live my life like this, taking all the lies like nothing.
I bought a new shoe instead of the one I posted, because just now I feel demoralized by the voices i hear, I heard that I won't get jobclub money, "not psychologist so cannot work", "meant to quit the job", it's maybe Alysha's voices eating my life, it sounds soft, why did she do this to me by talking too much, my memories is really like this then I have no one to believe me.
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