Roughly remember

It's so long time ago but the voices won't end, I'm so unlucky to meet a crazy girl named Alysha, maybe she's crazy that's why she still get to go university, and not schizophrenia? Her crime like a 100% got away with it, a criminal since young days, my luck still bad as reaching 38 years old and still poor + she won't be paying me back anything it seems like that.

I don't know why I get this kind of experiences, 38 years old soon? Wow Allah is too harsh on me, I really didn't feel the days except a lot of hotness in my 21 years like that, why is it like this? When will I recover? The voices made me so angry today then luckily I didn't memory loss, I really have nothing that I can do to counter the heartache feelings, I just can only wait and see on my 38 years old if my friends really would provide some recovery of pain for me when they give me money. It's so heavy the weight from Alysha's attacks, I just endure daily for almost 1 year already, why is my life like this? 1 year of Alysha's voices? I definitely won't recover then I think.

Stories of Pokemon cards made me happy then it's the stupid Alysha lying about the information, I'm so unlucky in my life, I really can't do anything about her freedom right now, as doctors are all stupid about it and letting her keep growing and achieve her life goals. Even her parents don't talk about her, how can I expect a payment from her parents when she's the one at fault to my life? This is really stupid.

I feel like I won't recover from schizophrenia, until age like my neighbours' that have schizophrenia, as long as they haven't recover, I'm dead meat with anhedonia due to this medicine Paliperidone.