Stress about Litterbug

I don't know why I'm so unlucky for years and doctors really only just sent me into I.M.H many times then can't do anything about me thinking SpaceX is nuclear, I am dajjal, etc. such thing, why doctors didn't punish the doer for it and I'm let to continue to suffer like I write big names then it definitely a searched name on Facebook then I live through it luckily no one summon me, it's really harsh my luck I'm so bad luck in my life journey and life is not good to me at all. Right now I'm stressed about litter but I have picked many litters in the past due to searching for cigarette, I hope they don't do anything to me, I've picked up a lot of empty cigarette box and throw in the bin when I was searching for cigarette.

My life I read about a person that drank own pee and ate own shit, then he makes $1m just by selling books in 2026, what an experience like so unlucky even if have money it's a bad life experience already. He gives away money like nothing it's weird how he survive like that, earning so much so easily, I wonder if I will become a man that earns a lot too. He have a dream book and achieving his dreams, makes me like wanting to have a dream book too.

I really feel heavy now, there's police car downstairs attending a bicycle person, then I imagine about litter fingerprint check, it's really crazy the peace is gone just like that, it ever happened even if my brother said that "they don't check fingerprint", it's really sad and scary, I just don't want to be warded again, it's additional mental torture in my life, just now 5p.m they're still downstairs so I don't know what time they will be here if they will be here, it's really an angry feelings maybe caused me to be unstable due to the madness of their hunting effort, it's just a piece of plastic but I am stress like this. They're so bad to me the government. Such a poor life then imagining summon from that day onwards, it's really sad and scary.

Only if I have the money from penalty of Alysha at least I would be stabilized a little bit about my stress, since it's been over 20 years I think she won't pay back anything, I feel like my family will shift house and then leave her forever, it's really bad to gain nothing from the pain I received or experienced.