Day 304 out of ward(352 on medications)

Happy day today, 10.30a.m is new Pokemon Biz at shop of my living area, it's like an energy to study hard and reminded me about doctor saying during my O level I will have Pokemon cards in my bag. I really hope doctor is psychic like telling me when I will start working instead of letting my parents demand/request me to work, I still hear voices of Alysha telling me to work, it's really bad and tiring for my head/mind.

Today I take medicine as usual and all were watching World Cup except me, Brazil vs Morocco 1-1. It's because I didn't play if not I scored like 2-1 for Brazil, hahaha. Being at this age I still blog and still feel like childish but that's the only thing that kills my boredom, I blog like every 3 hours per day because of free time being like that, I think even if I'm becoming a useless guy, I'm still having to live my life anyway and still have to endure the phase of my life when Sakinah is really gone from my life forever, along with other girls. It's really bad my schizophrenia I hope they just help me instead of being childish. It's really heavy my life journey.

Today the shop is closed before 10.30a.m so I will go down again at 10.30a.m to check the shop, I hope it will open to buy drinks too.

I think I'm following my parents to go Al-Ameen. Sayonara alligator.