So many unluckiness

I don't know why my life is like this, I'm so unlucky I don't even have the strength, I have schizophrenia and it like happened before in the past, it feels like doctor set-up for me to quit cigarette, it's really harsh, I wasted my money just like that, then I don't know why I feel like this bad feelings if I don't smoke, I have to endure for another 2 days then I guess, I really can't do anything.

Nobody will help me get the money back, I'm so unlucky, a smelly negro appeared and scratch his legs then put his hands into my tobacco packet, it's so stupid my life, I threw everything away, it's definitely dirty, I feel so stupid. He looks like 85kg or 95kg while I'm so skinny, I thought I'm fat at 75kg, I wasted my money then I don't know if I should report police at all, police is bad how they wait for report first, the camera have voice recording I think then I really don't know my luck is really bad luck.