27 Oct Jobclub

It felt heavy to think about Cleaning as Job Training, Life is Sure Boring, It's 1 Month to Train 1 Day.

I just have to believe in jobclub if not the doctor won't place me there, just now just wiping the chair seat my back became in pain, I really bad in cleaning. I know I must do this, it's really like the end is close, because I should be a soldier already by November and December? But if psychic is wrong about it, I end up a Lobby Crew job at Restaurant like McDonalds?

I can't believe this, I'm just doing what I can to believe doctor is my main focus, the boredom is real, the difficulty exist, will I become a better man? I really hope the soldier job appear soon, I know the 6 months job is that as psychic knowledge or Wali Allah told me, there's 2 different type of souls then the same answer - I will become a Soldier, that's all I've decided.

I became such a weak person, even cleaning felt painful at the back, it was 26mins only to finish in 45mins, the training is 3 hours in future I wonder what I would feel like, is it a continuous cleaning for 3 hours? I really hope I become a better man and do this well.

I really just want the job as a soldier and ends this stress in my mind, it's still 3 or 4 days to go until November, I know it will happen as I believe psychic and Wali Allah. But Soldier maybe is easier than cleaning? I know I must do well, soldier maybe a lot of walking around I imagine a lot of ease and easy jobs, while cleaning is backpain. I am worry about my future but I have energetic quotes like no pain no gain read on my Facebook, "no rich parents just hard work", I really have to do this thing, even if my parents don't give me money, it's only 1 month 2 days a week, then the start of receiving allowance for 3 hours work, $6/hr, it's $18/day, I really must do this well it's the only supported path that have someone close to monitor my strength.

Whatever it is, I hope soldier job appear in November this year. At least they recruit whatever qualification, I read require diploma to become a soldier. My life is really bad I just want to become someone stable.

Today my mother cooks chicken with sambal it's nice anyway, I feel like eating again, the chicken I ate was so small but I ate egg with sambal too, I want a sleep kind of feelings as nothing to do, like just finish the day from this boredom.

Today the excitement of using data was only awhile, I took video of outside Octave Jobclub as my Occupational Therapist wasn't around yet, I really love Simba Company, the feeling is fun of having something like this, it's like an asset to be happy about. I hope I have nicer plans in future to use my Data.