The Feeling of My Interest Really Gone From Me, Like Gaming, Ramadan, I'm Energetic Abit To Ask Doctor How Can I Feel Ramadan Like I Used To Next Year, It's Supposed To Be Calming At Night and Feel Different, Anhedonia Creates The Loss Of Pleasure From Enjoying Something Meaningful Will Be Bad For Me, I Wonder If I Should Just Buy St. John's Wort for Anhedonia or Wait For Doctors' Method Which I Prefer. Won't I Feel Like Self-Medicating if my Method Really Works?
I wonder why doctor let it be, the addiction to games to not be having it maybe? But why including Ramadan too? I feel nothing during Ramadan, the energy to listen to Ustaz every morning like Gone Too, I became into a lot of pleasure loss, I really want to enjoy myself in life.
I should've been very energetic in learning mandarin language, but I skip a day like nothing, it's like I don't mind missing 1 day if I don't feel well, it's just too unwell to enjoy learning sometimes.
If I remember correctly, the soldier recruitment is really December this year, I hope anhedonia doesn't take away my life ambition. I know I will be happy at 38 years old, but how can it be earlier? I haven't discovered what I would bicycle a lot at night for too. I know the buying of hoodie is meant for bicycling at night, why doctors won't just be straightforward to me about this? Wow doesn't this mean my Anhedonia is gone by the time I'm 38 years old? Means I will be recovered truly from Schizophrenia. It's truly exciting but I hope like an information about the soldier recruitment appears early November even. This also means I will feel pleasure again during Ramadan 38 years old onwards. Means somehow I will feel fixed. Is it doctors' medicine that will help me against Anhedonia? I just want to recover quickly.
It was like excitement of having something then I forgot my plans in life, or run out of money, life really sucks like this. I don't know what I can do to make myself feel better but just exercising, really feel like no life.
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