Another Day

Went out to A.T.M To Take Out Money, I Am Planning Only About $40 Until End Of This Month, Feels So Poor But Maybe Because I Bought Bicycle, $270 Total For Fixing Too, if not I would've that amount still.

I remember Psychic Doctor Tells Me I Will Do Well In My O Level Means I Will Take O Level Next Year, The Doctor is Always Right, I Think It Will Be Easy And Less Stressful Once School Start(I Really Am Telling My Father About This).

Now Another Day To Go Through Until Night Time, I Don't Know Why I Feel So Fast, It's Like Cig. is At Fault About This Other-Level Of Restless Feeling I Have. I Definitely Going To Tell Doctor I Feel Restless? Will Doctor Ward Me Again As I'm Worried Of Such Decision, It Will Be Boring At Ward.

I Don't Feel Like I Will Buy "True Singapore Ghost Stories" Set of Books, But I Think Last Year Nurse Said I Will Buy Using My I.M.H Research Money, I Wonder If True.

I Am Thinking What Certificate I Can Get To Gain Psychological Certificate If I Don't Do My O Level Next Year. I Really Want To Finish This Schizophrenia Being A Psychological Strength Myself. I Want A Job With Psychological Strength As Status Upon Thinking Of It.

I Think Of Pens and Pencil and Pencil Case For School Next Year, I Wonder If I Will Do It, It's Like I Will Because Psychic Doctor is a Psychic.

Then What About My Plan of w.w.f.g? How Will I Do It If I Am Going To School? Will It Be November and December? I Definitely Want To Do It, I Hope Doctor Support Me And Speak To Me Normally About My Life, Normal Topic Instead of Medications Only.

I Think I Remember I Will Work Every Weekends Next Year, I Hope Jobclub Gives Me A Good Job, I Really Want Money Badly.

Daily Writing Creates Ease To My Feelings, It's Like A Pressure in My Heart And The Dullness and Boredom Kinda Ache Me, It Releases a Kind of Stress I Feel. Maybe It's Like Symptom of Schizophrenia - Irritability? But It's Something Else I Hope It's Only Cig., As I Definitely Will Quit Cig. For School.

I Am Planning To Learn O Levels On TikTok Channels They May Have Videos Of Topic Examples, I Really Don't Know If There's Such Thing As Social Studies & History, If There Is I Would View Stories On TikTok To Memorize Dates, I Must Do This To Be Stronger In Life and Achieve My Dreams.

What's Causing My Worry Of Writing is Cig., I Really Dislike It But I Worry Of Being Warded Because Of It As Reason, I Don't Want To Be Warded Anymore, The Boredom Is Daily Thing, Just Lying On Bed and Walking Around, I Was Not Able To Sleep 10th Day Onwards, It Was Bad, I Started Smoking There And Then Spiked Around 20th Day Then Stopped Smoking. My Life Is Horrible Feelings When I Got Spiked, I Can't Sleep That Night Only 1 Hour or 2 Hours of Sleep, Then Continue The Day Even If Without Feeling Sleepy, I Don't Feel Balanced and Stable. They became a bit adventurous at morning around 4a.m walking around together, the spiked and spiker, Except Me Just Lying On Bed. I Don't Know Why The Spiker Dare To Do That, The Spiked Definitely Can't Sleep Because of Meth, They Weren't Questioned At All.

At There I Kept Thinking Of (S) If I Would Ever Get To Marry Her, My Worry About Experiences With Men, I Didn't Want (S) To Understand What is Sex At All, I Wonder Why No Doctors Worry But It's Because They Are Psychics, No One Worries What If They Experience More With Other Men, About The Girls I Liked/Love. I Wish And Hope They Are Mine As My Soulmates. My Worry Of Their Life Still Lives In My Heart, I Still Care Of/About Them.

I Hope Like A Magic That I Would Get To Contact (S) And Tell My Feelings To Her, I've Kept Since Kindergarten Days, I Love A Girl Since Kindergarten Then I Think All Boys May Have Such Love Imagination Then I Think It's Only Me, Only Me Have Such Love Desires Since Kindergarten.

I Wonder Why Psychic Doctors Won't Comfort Me About My Soulmates, That I Would Get To Marry Them. I Really Want My Happiness.

O Level I Imagined Being Top In Singapore, And (W)'s Mother Gets To See Me On News And Ask Her If She Would Want To Marry Me, I Would Be So Glad If It Can Become Easier. I Hope I Get To Become Top In Country For My O Levels.

I Think I Ever Asked Doctor if My Life Is Like My Imagination And Doctor Answered "Yes", Means I Will Be Top In Country? I Imagine Again, And (W)'s Mother Would Really Do That When See Me On News. My Imagination is Very Ambitious Success In Education, I Really Want To Do Well. Psychic Doctors Ever Said I Will Score All Distinction, Then My Nephew Too For His O Level, That I Will Be Top in A Level, And Him At O Level, A Double Happiness For My Family, Says Psychic Doctor. I really want it to be True, I want to do well.