Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Life Feels Tough

Life feels heavy with nobody to talk to, I only have Family Chat Whatsapp group to let our my feelings, thinking what I would do at night 1 day, is 2 or 1 mth of learning O Level enough before it starts if I resuming studies and do my O Level? Wonder what's my plan at that moment of bicycling alot at night. Maybe it's not about learning but something else I still can't think about it yet.
1. Study 2. Photo-Taking of Places to Explore 3. Exercise by Cycling but Hoodie can't be Exercise 4. Work(but Hoodie can't be Work) 5. Just playing Bicycle(it's too boring if play bicycle every night)
I really can't think of anything else. I know sometimes would wear my Black Fila Jacket other than Hoodie. What Activity is it?
Where would I go if Study, where do I get the books?
What should I do in my life at this time? I'm just waiting for Jobclub and I.M.H Research and live by whatever scheduled for me to do. I have no life, the heartbeat is a lot due to? Is it because of cig.? I really must live healthier.
I didn't buy for nothing maybe in the end everything is for Fishing alone?
My writings are usually a lot of questions, then it proves I have nobody to talk to and can't think properly on what to do in life. The readers don't tell me who reads and how come active like 24hrs in front of computer, life's weird why do I have this kind of experiences?
I have yet to wear my Hoodie to go out, it's a plan to live life happily, then I don't know what to do, some people exercise with hoodie anyway, maybe in the end I use for exercise too every night with bicycle? But Black Fila Jacket? Maybe meant for study, I maybe get books from carousell such thing? I really just feel like writing now, it creates loss of pain from me, like dullness and boredom.
I hope it's about work though, like parcel sending, or what if flyer even, I really want to be earning money just my body fitness is bad I feel unhealthy and no strength I don't know why too, I want to be stable health before working. Maybe N Level is not enough certificate for a kind of job?

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