I think like 50 Push-Ups Per Day Counted As It, I Will Be Stronger for my Soldier Life 1 Day. I Truly Hope It's End of This Year The Recruitment Starts, Then At 38 Years Old I'm Happy As Have Been a Soldier For 6 Months, I Want My Happiness Like This.
I Don't Know If (R) Will Appear Again In My Life Because It's Usually On Friday I Go Out With My Parents Every Morning, It's Like a Clueless Thing For Me If To Keep Thinking If (R) Will Appear or Not(I Think In Memory Like She Appeared When I Go Al-Ameen I Can't Remember Well) Is Quite Tiring Too.
I Wonder What Will Happen At Jobclub Tomorrow, It's Cig. Check On Bags Then Jobclub Training? I Really Hope Gets Money Like $10/Hr Something Like That When Doing The Training Because It's Work Also.
I Plan To Just Wear Normally For It, Cargo Pants and 3/4 Sleeve T-Shirt Maybe, Or Long Sleeve. I Know I Will Go Because I Want To Achieve Health and Money in My Life. Nobody Wants To Be Poor and Doctors Knows Best My Capability To Work Is At Which Area. I Heard It Takes 1 or 2 Month For A Job To Exist For Me, I Hope It's Just Money On The Spot Everytime and Considered As Work At I.M.H.
I Worry How I'm Still N-Level Person And Going Through Recovery Which Requires Time and There's No Other Effort Can Make It Faster Because It's By Quantity Of Medications and Days I Have Eaten Them. It's Day 68th Now Outside Ward and Medication At Home, I'm Really Happy I Am Doing Well About It. I'm Also Worried Like Why I Can't Sleep Like I Used To Be Able To Sleep In The Day and Night, I Exercise But I Can't Really Sleep, I Ever Fall Asleep Before When Learning Mandarin Language But Then I Can't Sleep At All After That, I Think It's Yesterday, I Wonder What Can Make My Body Normal Again.
It Also Feels Like I'm Taking O-Level When I'm A Soldier In U.S.A, I Hope It's Something Like That, I Really Want To Live Like American Life, They Are Happier In Living And I Want To Feel Happier Too. Doctor said "try to go" For Jobclub, means he actually don't mind if don't go too But I Really Need A Job I think I will really Go. Wonder when my Dreams Can Happen, I Feel Like A Kid Again Too. I feel like asking doctor "what would I do usually at night with bicycle 1 day alot of times?" too. I really want to know my life in future if I sound successful by stories of psychic, I don't know why I can't live well now, the happiness period really have to be 38 years old? Can Doctors or Nurses Help Me Be Happier Faster?
At 100th and 120th Day Outside Ward And Medication At Home, Maybe 1 Of It I Will Go City Hall(Or Wait Until I Bought A Laptop), I Don't Know What To Do, To Be Alone At Home If Can't Sleep, I Really Need To Celebrate Something, Maybe To Buy Myself McDonalds Again? Just Be Close To Home and Use The Bicycle? When Will My Family Celebrate That I've Been Well Healthier Than Normal As Take Medications? I Really Want A Celebration To Strengthen Me Further To Keep Going For My Life Goals After Recovery, Recovery Definitely 1 Of Goals. The Energy To Live Life Definitely From Soldier Recruitment 1 Day, It's Really My Ambition To Become A Soldier Then It Really Happens Because It's Like Psychic Knowing My Future Number(Now) In the Past and Correct About It. Why My Family Don't Talk About What Psychic Said Like "They Choose To Forget-Reaction" and Just Say "Don't Know" or Just "Is It?" Kind of thinking into my mind? My Future I must Be A Successful Person it's Because It's Been 17 Years Too Long Already I Need Something As Energy Of Life.
If Jobclub is Smooth Tomorrow, I Would Become a More Confident Man As I Would Believe Psychic More, What I Worry About Is About Going Toilets Too. I Hope I Do Well In My Life Tomorrow Onwards. May Jobclub Give Me A Nice Job I Can Live Life On Until I Become A Soldier.
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