Still can't think what to do

Daily life like restarted in my mind of what to do everyday.

The energy of a day is from? Enough sleep I guess. At least I have enough sleep? I don't know why I can't sleep back like the past, it makes hours passby quickly.

Plans of night with Adidas hoodie is still stuck too, I became a different mind kind of person, it's schizophrenia it means "split-mind" in other language. I can't think what to do everyday and night, it's like life have a lot of pauses. People have work etc. while my life is stuck, but it's weird the 6 daily readers really don't work too? Always in front of computer and refreshing my Facebook for new post? Life looks fun like that.

I can't think well, just like a slow time daily, to do nothing but focus on medication perfection to recover from schizophrenia. It's been years, schizophrenia definitely something heavy to have in life. I was thinking it's psychic answer sometimes then think I ever written to go out with Adidas hoodie at night many times 1 day, means maybe it's just based on what I have written and not really psychic knowledge? But the white collared blue long sleeve really a psychic knowledge, it will passby my life and it happened, maybe psychic did not show off the power he have, means I really will go out at night with Adidas hoodie alot of times 1 day. If not work at night because of Jobclub is morning, I wonder what happens causing me to go out at night alot as psychic knowledge? Why they story dangling and not complete? It creates the excitement of knowing future then don't know what happens. What does character build-up means that if tell me it ruins the character build-up?

I think of stopping to buy papers as rely on jobclub and maybe the brain brilliance pills too, like my mind will still be the same even if I don't eat the pills? Should I continue buying it? I was energized on a lot of health improvement ways to perform then feel like waste of money too as my mind remains the same? But it's good for my age maybe but maybe good for studying instead? I really want to become a successful person in life too. Daily exercise appeared and I didn't go jogging today because my legs pain because of alot of walking, I can't settle on what to do with my life. I imagine life of doctors or nurses, is work, then if off day maybe they stay at home, they sleep after work then done. Their life not boring somehow.

With a dangling life story like adidas hoodie at night, I can't know still of what's happening to my life. What occasion happens that night? It's a frequent activity by story, did I meet new friends causing such activity? At this age people work and stay at home on weekends while me just focusing on medication and getting well and healthy with worry of matters like jobs and daily boredom. I will look around more of what to do, maybe bicycle at night, today my nephew's bicycle is missing, my nephew use his bicycle early in the morning I wonder what he's doing having a morning outdoor life.

I now have a diary application so not all writings on blog means a privacy thing. It will be about what I miss and my happiness of completing medication for how many days, today is the 58th day I'm outside ward and still taking my medication correctly I hope I continue to do well. Many people been secretly not taking medication then loss the energy due to wanting perfection then stop taking medication and wait for another year to restart, I've restarted many times so many years, I hope Im given a different type of support to my life like being bought a computer and computer table such things to use in my room, it will be nicer typing with keyboard.

I notice people get older then don't use social media much except me it's due to schizophrenia I feel like catching up loss of moments and experiences. Think the readers really decided not to message me anything at all and remaining as a secret reader - about those not jobs of my parents' to save my writings. This is early morning writing due to dullness of life. I really hope psychic tells me more detail in future but can't make them tell me I guess, thinking what activities will exist at night causing my lots of bicycle activity 1 day every night.