Reminded What Schizophrenia Did

Last Year I Totally Forgot All Memories with Medications and Yearly Ward Life, I Forgot All The Thing I Did When Ate Medication.

Now I Remember Since Warded Days At 35A But As 2nd Time Only, It's Weird I Been Warded Multiple Times I Think. Schizophrenia Created Me To Lose Memories of My Life If I Did Not Take Medications, I Think The Recovery Way is To Take Medication Then Remember For The Whole Year. If Not I Would've Thought It Would Be Okay To Not Take Medication and Not a Warded Kind Of Life Experience Can Happen To Me, Doctors Maybe Strictly Put Me Requiring To Eat Medications Or Warded Again As The Reality.

This Time I Remember The Past By Photo Image, Then It Takes Time To Remember Everything But I Successfully Remember, This Means Medication And My Memory Is Still Good For Studying. I Definitely Don't Want To Maintain As An "N Level" Only. Schizophrenia Got Me Stuck There For So Long. Just My Age Is Too Old For Something Else? Maybe Certificates or At Least Capable To Get A Diploma, I Wonder Why My Parents Let Me Join C.o.C Special Limits When I Require To Take Medications? Isn't it a Waste? I Want To Be A Soldier When Thinking Of The Life A Man Must Be Like, I Think My Age Is Too Old To Be Late Will Be Regretful, I Wonder What I Should Work As As Something Stable. I Think I'm Reminded That At 38 Years Old Until 41 Years Old I Would Save $50K Means I Would Have A Stable Job Next Year?

Why Won't Someone Support Me This Year, Like a Simple Job For Me To Do? I think again to do Jobclubs Alone As Fine Earning Maybe It's Where I Start Saving Money Next Year? Why Matter of Money Not Improving This Year Or Before 38 Years Old?