Recovery means my Health is Normal Like Everyone Else, I Hope To Get The Normal Health Faster Than Answer "38 Years Old", I Am Aiming For A Stable Job Like Everyone Can Do Such Thing.
Why Recovery Can't Come Early? I've Done Exercises Like Push-Ups For 2 Days Straight, I Really Want To Recover, Arm Spin and Legs Lifting When Lying Down.
What is the success path after my recovery? Will I truly become a Soldier once I've proven I can hack and Get A Nicer Certificate? Will My Health Be Like That? I feel like exercising Diagonal Height Push-Up and Pull-Ups After Looking At A Video Someone Got A Nice Shape Body Just Doing The 2 Exercises. I really want to become Something. Schizophrenia causes Delay in A lot of Things In My Life.
Today Morning I Ate Satay Goreng and Ikan Fillet With Nasi It's Nice Then I Drank Coke Downstairs. I've been thinking of my Fitness and Health, I Truly Hope Fishing Comes Earlier So I Can Go Fishing Alone 1 Day. I Just Want To Grow In Health and Fitness. It Feels Like Next Year Is Not The Year I'm Taking My O Level Because It's My Recovery Year, I Really Want To Recover Faster Than The Said Thing. What Should I Do? I only have to wait daily taking and thinking of medications? Will there be a change of medications? I Guess I Only Have To Wait and Take Medications Daily. I Wonder What Normal Health Feels Like, Definitely Like A Man Becoming A Soldier And Can Work Daily?
I'm Planning of Increasing My Push-Ups Quantity Daily Hoping To Recover Faster. Exercise is Definitely A Path of Recovery, If I Can't Jog I Walk A lot In My House Daily, Legs Pain Causing Can't Jog and If I Don't Walk I Feel Restless Anyway, Feeling Healthier is Nicer, Walking Makes Me Feel Healthier. I Don't Know Why My Body Difficult to Do Push-Ups Now, It's Maybe My Age and My Muscle Have Weaken.
I Have 2 More Days Until Jobclub(Yay It Feels Like The End and Start of Life) Gets Me A Job. I Think I Shouldn't Panic or Rush-Feelings In My Heart Because In The End It's Only Weekly Visits, Monthly Medication, Jobclub and I.M.H Research in Schedule of My Life, It's The Rushes Of Waiting For The Incoming Day, My Heart Feels Uneasy.
My Road To Recovery Still Have To Wait For Duration of Medication It's Just Too Long, Isn't There Any Nice Activity I Can Do Other Than Cycling? Maybe I Should Not Feel Bored and Learn To Read Arabic Language Faster Than My Plans? I Guess Only Time Will Heal. If I Remember Correctly I Would Be Able To Read Arabic Language at 39 Years Old, Means it's Still 2 More Years To Go, About Psychic Answers, I Really Can't Wait To Feel The End Of Pain and Start of Peace(Reading Al-Quran). My Life Waiting For Soulmate Wouldn't Be Dull or Painful As Have Al-Quran For Peace. I Wonder What Would Happen To Me, Once I Get To Read It Would Be Nicer Life I Guess, and Then Understand The Peace Behind Reading Al-Quran. Maybe Next Year I Will Spend Time On Arabic Language Too Other Than Mandarin Language? I Can't Wait To Have Life.
I Plan on Becoming Smarter Daily, I Also Plan On Increasing My English Vocabulary. I play "Elevate Brain Exercise" To Exercise My Brain, It's only 3 Games Per Day But Worth It I Guess. I Plan On Learning History For O Levels I Think It's The Only Thing That Will Never Change? Means Learning Earlier Before I Register For O Levels. I must do my best in life to grasp enough time to become a successful person, potential exist then I was suddenly warded and kept losing memory, then my scores became passing Normally For My N Level. I Hope It's The End This Time. I read once the recovery happens, the voices became to be at the back of my mind instead of Front, I hope the end is near or a faster way gets known or else it's only time will heal me up.
Anyway I Saw That If I Look At Main Page of Blog There's No Counts Of View Per Title, But It Became An Overall Blog Visit Of Around 490+ Yesterday, I'm Quite Happy Actually Have Someone Visiting My Blog and Understanding Me More Than The View-Counts Per Title Definitely, Means Someone Understood That I Have Been Spiked And Thinking It Takes 3 or 4 months to be Over. I Remember My Schizophrenic Moments I Would Believe Nonsense of What I Hear Then Wrote It Down On My Blog(Not This One But The One I Have Deleted).
Psychic Knowledge As: 38 Years Old Happy, 39 Years Old Know How To Read Arabic Language, It's Finally The End And Life Became Complete in 2 Years Time(As I Became To Be Able To Read Quran Myself), I Can Be By Myself Without A Problem I Assume, A Solo Lonely Me With Al-Quran.... Then Also Already-Understood Mandarin Language At That Time, I Definitely Just Goal To Become A Smarter Man.
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