My Mother Gone To Kampung Jawa

Still in Touch with Relatives From So Far Away At Kampung Jawa, Makes Me Think of (S) If Her Family Also Like This. My Mother Don't Look 70 Years Old At All, Only Like 50+ Years Old. She's Already Old And Time Is Precious At Home I Really Hope She Don't Create Like Heartburn Talks When She Comes Back 3 Weeks Later. The Anger Creates A Heat In Heart That It Burns Like A Supernatural Hotness Exist, It Feels Like Hell, I Read That "Sabar" Creates Heart to Heat-Up, Then I Guess I Don't Want Her To Waste Her 70 Years Old Making Me Angry But I Really Know What I'm Doing in Life, My Weakness In Life Makes Me Can't Do Some Things.

I Really Ever Forgotten She's My Mother During My Schizophrenia For Years, Means I Really Don't Know Who Are My Family Members(Her Cousins etc.), All I Know Is 1 Of Them Wanted To Care Me Since Baby When My Mother Thought She Would Die From Giving Birth To Me. It's This Family.

I Really Think (S) is Spending Time With Her Niece As She Didn't Give Her Time For Me, and Somehow I Think Her Question Like If I "Have Eaten" In M.R.T Makes Me Think She Loves Me Due To Psychological Facts Of Asking Such Question is Disguising Love Into Normal Question. It's Weird I Hope I Get To Marry Her Soon.

I Really Can't Remember My Relative Even Until Now Taking Medications, I Think She's 1 of Family Member of Wali Allah. They are Nice People And I Think A Kind That Allah Doesn't Take Back "The Wali" Of What Allah have Given Their Family. They Know Like A Miracle or Psychic, I Don't Know Why I Can't Recover Or They Maybe Still Advise to Solat Even if KNOW, It's Weird Too I Feel of Asking Psychic The Correct Way To Solat To Feel Peaceful Like Them(They Look Truly Peaceful And Happy).

It's 3 Week My Mother Will Be Gone, I Hope She Will Be Safe, Happy and Comfortable At There.

It's Weird How I Don't Remember If Anyone is My Family Members, Like Forgetting My Mother is My Mother During My Schizophrenic Moments For Years. I think it's Mainly Because of Their Strictness About Money, I Wonder Why Too That They Didn't Help Me Get (S). I Wonder Why My Life in Suffering Thinking of Soulmate and Life Experience. They Go Places and I Don't Know If Don't Go Shopping Malls Too Like My Mother.

I Ever Feel Like Going All Shopping Centres In Singapore, Stopping By M.R.T Stations And Capture Video To Make Money(Like Can Make Money From Exploration Videos).

They Don't Worry About Money At All, Different Than Me, Like My Father Can Keep Working Despite Being 73 Years Old, I Wonder How He Did It Too. I'm Happy How Healthy They Are And They Truly Looks Like Will Live A Long Time. I Hope My Mother Don't Waste Time Scolding My Unwanted Lifestyle(It's Not That I Don't Want To Work But I Can't Due To Catatonia that I Hope Doctors Really Tell My Parents About It).

Pictures Are To Show (S) About My Mother's Life Going Kampung Jawa. I Hope (S) Remembers Which One is My Mother, She's the Short One in 2 Person Last Picture.