My Loneliness is Felt Heavily Like I Wonder If Anyone Love Me It's Been So Many Years Single Life, Do Anyone Actually Cares At All. Single with Losing Memories and Doing Meaningless Stuff At Home Like Watching Abandoned Structure Videos of Exploration, Empty Shopping Malls Exploration, All Imagining Money All the Time And Feeling Heavy Every Day And Melatonin/Valerian Root Saved Me From More Pain At Night and the Next Day. Why Do I Have This Kind of Sickness For So Long? Does Anyone Actually Believe Me It's Not Really Lazy But Can Just Say Lazy To Skip Explaining The Feeling?
1 December is Close, Definitely Buying The Mood Support Pills That Can Last For 3 Months Due To 90 Pills, But I Read The Required Servings As 2 But I Maybe Still Will Take 1. It's Like Valerian Root Requiring 5 Servings But Taking 1 is Fine Too To Save and Be More Stable On More Days.
Today I Ate Leftover of Dina's McDonald Pancakes and It Felt Nice, My Father Also Bought Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis In The Noon Just Now. Then I Remember Today is Sunday and Hoping (S) Really Ate Nice Food Too or She Been Eating Nice Food? She's definitely spending time with her niece if she contacted me earlier wouldn't have time to respond to me because of caring her niece I think it's something like that. 6 more months to wait for her is so long, the estimation of contact. I remember it felt horrible when I thought she never knew I love her at all then I've been searching for her my entire life, then she actually can contact me but did not, and got into relationship I wonder why too with an ugly monkey-feature man that the name as vocabulary "Iman"? Why people use vocabulary as name? It's different than her it's like her name definition is only used in Selawat matters? If 1+1 = 2, "Iman" Sounds more like Vocabulary than her name.
Just my luck I tried my best by posting A.I of Monkey Feature About Escalator Jokes and It Really Looks Like "Iman"'s features then I think I know he's handicap(cacat) causing his Child to be Cacat too 1 day as Story of Buccal Swab Will be Proving It that it's true. It's like a Wali Allah still can no longer be a Wali Allah, and it doesn't matter if Psychic claimed his Son Will Become A Wali Allah. Buccal Swab collects D.N.A and Blood Test Was Done During It To Check for Sickness and/of Future Babies Something Like That. I Think (S) really wasted Time of her Life with Him like he M*sturbate when I Met (S) in M.R.T when I claim to him that I still win if I Molest (S), then Psychic claim he went to M*sturbate(means he got too angry and annoyed so he Did that), really he just left (S) like that with me talking in the train together for a long time.
I really think (S) should just be with me and hope I can just get a nice job at Jobclub to survive from being called something like a Freeloader(living without earning anything but others keep paying for me), I think I learnt in Chinese Drama at the Subtitle.
Anyway he thought I'm Wali Allah abusing power just to tackle (S) as knows he M*sturbate. Psychic was the one that told me and I believed Psychic.
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