I Have Submitted My Bank Book Screenshot to My O.T(Occupational Therapist) and I Somehow Have The Energy To Be Happy to Be Going Jobclub Again.
Catatonia Create A Bad Feeling To Body If We Perform a Plan, Then We Would Want To Reverse for the Normal Feelings Again. But it's Also Maybe Anhedonia Too As We Lost The Pleasure of Doing It So We Cancelled The Plan? It Makes Us Mentally Becomes Sick and Sad As It's A Plan That We Love To Be Doing Then We Cancelled It?
I Plan To Buy Mood Support Pills(For The Valerian Root, St. John Wort's Mixture in the Pill, 2 in 1) To Counter My Anhedonia Maybe It Will Counter Catatonia Too(I Don't Feel Stuck Anymore). Valerian Root Was My Surviving Pill From Schizophrenia, It Makes Body Less Painful From Catatonia That Promotes Schizophrenia To Happen. I Think Mood Support Pill + My Medication Will Be Strongest Health Creation To My Lifestyle, I Can't Wait For December To Order It But I Have To Wait, I Really Want My Stronger Health Back. I Hope It Creates Me Able To Perform A Job Too.
Today I Ate McDonald Pancakes From My Brother And Happy About It, I Was Also Thinking Of (S) If She Ate The Same As Me(I Hope She Does), Because Her Lifestyle Like Rarely Will Eat McDonalds Pancakes Except Saturday and Sunday? I Really Pity How Someone Hardworking As Her Suddenly Will Get Schizophrenia 1 Day, I Hope I'm Fast or Quick Enough To Save Her From The Hellish Boredom Of It, I Definitely Don't Want Her To Feel Alone During Her Period of Schizophrenia. I also Remembered That She Will Recover The Fastest Causing Me To Become "The Best Medicine Expert" Something Like That, in Mental Hospital, I Know I Would Want Her Healthy For Our Future Babies(As I Want to Marry Her and Have Babies with Her In Future). It's Maybe Just Telling Her "It Will Create the Babies To Be More Healthier" If She Takes The Medicine. Schizophrenia Naturally Rejects Medicine I Think, But I Remember She Knows "It's just eating it", Easier Said Than Done in the Past, We Imagine We Are Being Looked Upon As "Due to Insanity Need to Take Medicine" Something Like That Causing Not Wanting To Eat Medicine.
I Think St. John's Wort Will Support Both Catatonia and Anhedonia while Valerian Root Will Support the Physical Pain That I Feel In My Body, Other Than Melatonin Too. It's Like Lorazepam is Sleeping Medicine But Supports Catatonia. I Think I Can Do This Healthily.
I Plan To Top-Up $30 For My Simba Line But It's Like Going To Be $50 and $50 For EZ-Link Too. Like Using Up On What's Important First For My Life. EZ-Link is To Go Jobclub/I.M.H.
At the Moment I'm On 107th Day Outside Ward On Medication and Total Of 154 Days On Medicine. Total Days Required is 365 Days On Medicine To Recover I Think, But I Know Recovering At 38 Years Old That I Somehow Hope Can Become Earlier, Especially with Mood Support Pills 1 Day I Will Buy From iHerb. I Feel Like I Can End This Pain Soon, I Need To Counter Catatonia's and Anhedonia's Pain Somehow, Definitely Mood Support Pills Are Important In Future Against These 2.
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