Thinking of Future For The End

In Future Will Someone Just Tell Me What's Going On? It's still like a Plot of Making Me Write Stuff In Public, Like Meant To Be This Way, I wonder what's a better solution because internet is needed, I hope that people that don't understand English or Schizophrenic Family Member are the ones that reads instead if it become worse, but people with schizophrenic family may be jealous if did nothing wrong yet that's public, someone just want to live up the talks and story to become a discussion in public.

I feel like a name-changing suggestion movement exist too, because of Good Names. I really can't do anything about Schizophrenia, the hot feelings suddenly appear then I have to write nonsense to feel not hot even by Abit, I don't know why it's like that. But it's been around 4months of medication and hot feelings only appear when the medication(injection) is running out then I can become easily angry because it's running out. Don't know why it's physical pain but mental sickness, isn't it physical sickness that's help from mental sickness? Isn't Anhedonia a physical matter to feel loss of pleasure and it can't be mental sickness? I hope doctor consider Anhedonia as other illness and help me. I really don't want to feel nothing during Ramadan especially.

I really can't feel anything that I became unable to puasa because of feeling nothing, Ramadan supposed to be happiness every night time, even going out to Bazaar will be nice feelings. The loss of pleasure is too much sadness that secretly liking it to occur to me is imagined in people's heart that they like me to suffer.

Anhedonia solution can easily be St. John's Wort but it create a kind of Rush I think if Doctor have a special medicine for it will be nicer. I wonder if Doctor actually knew because as psychic, that Anhedonia is considered as painful because of the sad emotion it can create, causing Mental Sickness instead as fact, then Doctor can't do anything because it comes along with a Mental Sickness.

I hope that if I have no friends, my life at least will be feeling Ramadan properly and feel higher peaceful every Ramadan Really Comes Back. It's maybe Anhedonia creating the Sadness to Me.

Nowadays I Can Sleep Quite Well Only Waking Up Around 12-2A.M But Sometime 3A.M Too, I think Melatonin is still important to me. Melatonin is a Sleeping Medication. Another Sad thing is Alamakchat have a suggestive nick ban that I don't know from who, this wifi passcode been new, then it makes me like a weirdo instead when I enter using nick Anas_Qai then kicked out instead, I became lazy to enter Alamakchat anymore, the passcode is also at A Kind of Sticker, I wonder what happened, if it's the same I.P as the Old Wifi, I have ever given my Passcode publicly, sad for me in this kind of Sickness.

The unwell feeling to be able to take Mandarin Language still exist I don't know why it's like this. I also heard that the Nurses are all actually friendly that they won't join the public attacks that I wrote publicly, it's weird but the voices like voice-sent then I think it's just a hope-voice instead, I wonder why schizophrenia is like this even if take medications, but I feel stronger everytime I have enough sleep too. They are the only ones that maybe believe voices exist somehow, and it's not a lie. It's not remembered as from me too somehow, means it's a different type of thoughts I wish I know what happens. Maybe it's a self-comforting statements?