Total Boredom

Yesterday Felt Sick I Ate Melatonin At Night And Today Abit Stronger, I Think It's The Catatonia It's Really Other Sickness, Like a Weight In My Body.

I Worry How It's Been So Long Then I Remember Doctor in M.R.T With Me With (S) That It Will Be Fine, Doesn't this Mean I Will Marry (S) in Future? Hope she's okay even if I think this way in my heart, matters of Soulmate is Better Not To Be Too Far Apart but they just worry of Babies before Marriage that can cause Baby To Be Sick Everytime. I wonder why I wrote it like this, I really am taking medications. It's my 145th day On Medication Since 30 June At Ward, I'm Really Happy Being This Strong On Medication, Just Feeling Vibrations That Doctors Knew and Didn't Give Me Benztropine I think it's like what it should be. July is 31 Days, then Up to 15 Aug then 30 June is last day of June, Total is 47 Days Medications in Ward. Today is my 98th Day Outside Ward On Medication, I'm Truly Happy About It.

365-145 = 220 Days Left, If Divide by 30, It's 7Mths+ Left To Go For My Total Recovery. I Really Feeling Happy About This.

I Wonder What Doctor Would Do About Catatonia and Anhedonia, Is Melatonin Enough For Catatonia Even if The Remedy is Lorazepam(A Sleeping Pill)? Anhedonia I just need a bit of St. John's Wort I Guess. This actually means I would say I have 3 Different Sickness in my Body, Catatonia is the Body Movement Stucky Thing. Anhedonia makes me less Satisfied with Food causing me to want to eat a lot more, I Remember Doctor Saying It's only 75% Of Pleasure of Food or It's My Dream-Memory Mix-Up Because My Brother Eat Chilli Tuna Only Half As Enough While I Usually Will Eat Entire Tincan Alone.

Maybe Yesterday Due To Not Enough Sleep I Wrote About Something People Don't Understand Like *.dll, If An Image is *.jpeg/jpg/gif, An Application is *.exe, A Notepad it *.txt, it's something like this is what I mean, If I Know How To Do It, I Would Become A Stronger Hacker I Think That There's No Icon, But Then My Clan Name Would Be "b£@nk", having an Empty Icon is Fine. I'm happy thinking how (S) will be spending Time With Me 1 Day, It's Been 17 Years Long That We Didn't Meet At All. She Really Kept Her Promise Like Instagram Picture With A Cat to Remind Me Something At M.R.T Due to My Memory Loss. I really feel special about her effort and promise.

Today I Think I Would Spend Time Looking About At Flash and Adobe Photoshop Tutorials But I Maybe Will Be Bored Of It Because Only Brother's Computer I Can't Really Do Anything Feeling Enough About It, It's A Tiny Laptop with a Big Screen. I Hope I Can Spend Time Learning Mandarin Language But I Feel Quite Unwell.

I Hope (S) efforts to meet me sooner or plan of contacting me somehow, I remember Doctor Saying she will love me on 17 November 2025, saying with her Lips about It, Doctor Told Me in M.R.T, I hope it's true, means she love me 17 years Later? Or If I Remember Wrongly? But the Voices Of My Memory Is Clear Like That Or It's Delusional? Doesn't this mean I Really Got Her and Should Be Spending Time With Her Already?