I Applied for Shoppee Job At Rango Loh, and Only Have A Slot On 12.12, I Just Replied "Yes" About It to Do The Job, I Think December Is The Moment Soldier Job Application Will Appear and Hope I Really Get It, Daily is Boring And I Think I Remember Like My Neighbour is Going For Soldier Job Too But I'm Forgetful Thinking It's A Dream, I Keep Repeating the Same Thing just Because Wanting to Have Something to Write In My Blog. My Neighbours Looks Healthy How Lucky About Their Life Without Schizophrenia and Spikes Too. I'm Unhappy How The Spike is Felt Today STRONGLY At My Legs, It's Felt A Hanging-Goodness - That's Incomplete Making Like "Wanting to Finish The Feeling"(The Solution is to Take Meth But I Won't), I Decided My Life To Be Clear From Drugs And Be Healthy for My Future Babies.
It's Weird How If Ever Talked With Neighbours Then Suddenly Different, I Imagine. I think Doctors really knew about these feelings too, the oddity. Means Neighbours also have no updates about Soldier Jobs maybe? Or I'm just too fast due to the Spike? Wanting the job to rest my heart thinking of Stability in my mind.
I Guess They maybe waiting for the Soldier Jobs to knock doors too, wow. It's really difficult life like this, my neighbour even without Schizophrenia maybe understands Life Same As Me how if parents did not give money then we're already at this age to ask is like a kid or child-like, like imagination of being retarded. Lucky neighbour have someone while I'm alone for 17 years without anyone, even Doctors only limited me into hearing "just eat medicine" as their answer, I truly want something like gains in life, sudden normal jobs instead of "cleaning training imaginations". I just remembered I haven't gone to DBS to change my old phone number into a new one, I really want this new life feelings, like 1 of Jackpot because 80244202 is planned to be used my Entire Lifetime! I'm so happy about my number pattern. Numbers written many times just because of hoping (S) or my Ex (W) and (A) decided to contact me, but they won't. I remember they will somehow believe me strongly what schizophrenia feels like because they will be having Schizophrenia too 1 day as said by psychic. I really feel like becoming a Nurse to care them then.
I think playing a lot of Computer can lead to be getting Schizophrenia? It's because of The Loss of Pleasure without Computer the Dullness we feel, it's like I was Hacking Alot Then Suddenly Doctor Stopped Me Through An Alliance Group Leader, means I decided to stop Hacking suddenly because of heeding and trusting Doctor, and for a Good Name Too, to be getting to work as Hacker and Be Selected for the best Job Available. I know I will work at O.C.B.C as The Story, I plan it to be my entire family lifetime Including my Children when they become a Hacker too. It's something like Soldier Job Attached To O.C.B.C, Soviet Union, I.M.H and S.A.F, I definitely become something in the vision of Psychic's Knowledge. A Hacker Soldier Job! Wow. I really like my Job Status and Then I Imagine Myself Learning Language of Russia and Germany, Then Definitely France Too 1 Day Because of Soviet Union, I Really Desire And Ambitious to Become Somebody Great. Why if my future is So Bright like this but my Family did not give me money? It's because of Death and it's bad to be too happy not thinking of Death of Family I Think. Because of Death and me being Top Hacker in the World like a Surprising Guinness World Record News, I feel like dead people actually can see us and communicate with us and even have wishes when they look at Us Live from The Unknown World of the Dead. It can't be like I'm eating something new recipe then the dead people don't understand how it tastes like, they maybe can feel it too, maybe while we are carrying it to throw somehow?
I remembered of Mushroom Chicken Soup and Chicken Chop poured it, as my Recipe of Chicken Chop with Sambal Honey and Maple, and Sugar. I really wanted to Cook My Family This Due To Feeling Bad How I Am Bad During My Schizophrenia, but my Family Like Don't Really Care About Me But Really Settled The Bills of Medications To Feel Different, It's Different Like Flavours and Experiences of Life Of What I Mean. Medicine is Important and It's Expensive $313+ I think for Injection and 1 Bulk Set of It, I Somehow Like The Price to be like that thinking of Imam Mahdi Only Have 313 Armies. Why are Muslims so Few As Armies?
It Makes Like: My Health is Meant For Being Army of Imam Mahdi. In the world there's so many fake Imam Mahdi and I wonder what's going to happen like why it never end fast too.
The Imagination of Hybrid Fruit Farms to be 20 Years Before It Exist(The New Species), is like a Hope of A Nicer Future, I really want True Muslims and People at Effort for It to Taste Hybrid Fruits - It's just Mixing Tree Wood. The Imagination of Red Banana makes like a Business of "Goreng Pisang or Jemput-Jemput" will be Nice that it's a Special Red Banana As It. Will My Family Even Do Such Business if they read this secretly? I think it's really nice.
I really want to feel something in life - I think the respect to the dead somehow if we can achieve something different like understanding my theory of Magnifying Glass to Aluminium can cause A Free 100°C Pan to Happen, it will definitely be Nice different type of Life Experience like Camping at Pulau Ubin or St. John Island? Wow we can really make our life different and chase before it's too late(Feeling different way of Cooking without Campfire).
Magnifying Glass and Wood Really Makes Fire But Aluminium Looks Cleaner Too?
I'm Hoping I Survive this December Until The Next G.S.T Package. I will definitely buy a lot of Chicken Chop with Rice because of Coleslaw it's for my Future Babies to be Healthy. I'm Having a Bit of Panic about Jobs at Shoppee or Not on 12.12 But It's Luckily Long Way To Go And I Remembered Doctor Stop Me From Working There Before? Means I Shouldn't Work There But I Accepted It Yesterday and Will Receive News About the Work Next Monday.
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