It's Tempting to Learn Adobe Photoshop But I Don't Have A Computer To Learn It, My Brother's Computer is Not Counted It's A Tiny Laptop With Big Screen. I Wonder When's My Life Starting, The Happiness in Heart Exist Just Looking At Available Tutorials Courses That's Around 4 Hours Long. What Should I Do My Catatonia is Like This, Feels Stuck And Wanting To Do It, Will There Be Android Graphic Editing Courses But It Won't Be Fun? I Want To Get The Drawing Pad That I Can Design Just By Own Drawing On Adobe Photoshop, I Really Want To Create a Blue Fire Kind Of "w.w.f.g"(we walk for ghost) So To Imagine It's Cold and Heat as Ghost.
Will I Really Do Well In This Adventurous Group? At my age I just don't want to feel too late, it's like I don't have to go any Cleaning Training Too and just Focus On Medications, I know Doctor ever mentioned that he will be around During Soldier Recruitment And Door Knocks To My House, Means I Will Get the Job First Before Cleaning Training Maybe? I'm Truly Excited About It Of How I Will Gain Friends To Contact With My New Number, It's Like a New Life Starting For Me. I Know My Neighbour Will Also Join The Soldier Job(I Think) Just Because We Both Are N-Levels Only And It's The Most Stable And Easy Job. I Don't Know Maybe If We Talk Of It Then Suddenly It's Not Yet Then It Became Funny. I Remember It's Like a Dream They Ever Bought Stuff From Me(Including My Next Door Neighbour) When I Splurge On Stuff Without Thinking and Ran Out Of Money, I'm Happy Because Of Help From Neighbour. It's weird my Schizophrenia and their Schizophrenia, They Look Healthier Than Me. I Remember It Looks Very Believable I Am Recovering First Because Of Reciting "Ya Hayyu"(100K Times) By My Neighbour Telling Me Maybe It's Because Of This They Are Just More Stable Than Me But I Recover First After 20+ Years Of Skipping Medications.
I Really Looking Forward For This Hacker Job To Cut Terrorism In Country Faster Before They Became One(Means Knowing They Have Interest First By Spying What They View). I Definitely Am An Important Role In My Country. I Also Look Forward For My Job Title It's Maybe Really "Hacker"(Of Company/Group) And I Find It Really Cool I Got Such Job Status 1 Day.
My Neighbours Just Now At Elevator Didn't Make Me Feel Like I'm Taking O-Level Next Year Maybe It's Next 2 Years Then? They Really Know More Than Me As I Have Schizophrenia and Experience Memory Loss. They Also Made Me Reminded of "Suntricity" Vocab of How I Bump Into Them At Elevator Like It Happened The Same Last Year. I Rarely See My Neighbours Outside of House Only During These Moments And It Happened Like Repeats of Last Year. Like A Practice of Repeat Happening in House, In Ward and My Neighbours Too. It's A Memory Restrengthening Plan or What?
I Feel Like Just Learning Adobe Photoshop but if Have Computer It Feels Better, Should I Buy A $200+ Laptop December But I Feel Like Saving My Money. I feel like living life like my neighbour with Laptop at Front of House. How Lucky My Neighbours Are Healthy in Life Like My Family, I'm In Schizophrenia, Catatonia and Anhedonia Causing Sadness, If Difficulty of Sleep Will Be Like From Spikes It's Maybe Mistaken As "Happiness Instead So Can't Sleep" Maybe? I wonder when I will become a Special Smoker Too?
What Should I Do In Front of My Android with So Much Free Time, I Really Lost Which Course I Have Taken Due To Panic Of "Having to Pay For The Courses", I Ever Listed Them Before In My Notes. I Think To Take Other Courses About Phones Photo Editing Maybe, It's Definitely Interesting To Have, I Remember I Ever Done Through SnapChat A Background Image and Video of Myself, It's Something Cool Way Of Video Edit, It's Really Cool, I Really Plan To Maybe Do Ghost Hunting Videos Like That An Image First and A Video of Someone Talking, "We Will Be Going For Ghost Hunting At .. On .." With Background Image of the Place. Wow, Life Really Can Become Meaningful With Psychic That Can Tell About What Souls Want To Speak With Us Too, I Think Psychic Did Not Tell About Dead People Yet, I Wonder When. I remember 1 time psychic doctor ever told me that I would make business of my grandfather that he would make if he's alive, I really want it to be fast too, I'm dead bored and sad of my life feeling like nothing then remembered again there's death occurrence in family then recovered me up they have a nice reason to not help me yet.
I Really In Future Looking Forward To Things Like "What would my grandfather say to me?" Such thing from Psychics, I really want to feel the excitement of life away from these Anhedonia that I have. I Plan for time to Past really quickly by playing games but sometimes Anhedonia makes me no energy for games at All. Why my family don't make a business like I can do packing at Home? Why not do like "Ayam Masak Merah" Sales, "Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis" Even? "Cheesecake" with Lotus Biscoff Crumbs? I feel bored like why not earn money at home? Then I don't speak to them of this, but I think they read this too somehow? Just luck of trying to gain money from making a business together. I really feel meaningless life at home, if go out I wonder where to, I feel like going Library but to read what Books? Are there "True Singapore Ghost Stories" Book in Library that I can Read? In the end I did not buy it because I Saw My Brother Have The Books around 3 Chapters of It, Last Chapter etc. Means I Won't Buy The Entire Set for $160 And It Takes Time To Read All Still. They Definitely Wishing For My Recovery First.
Wonder what Course I Should Take, I Really Am Bored At Home, Jobclub Haven't Contacted Me Yet Too. I Still Haven't Go To DBS To Change My Number Too.
Why My Family Don't Sell Kuih Raya As Business Isn't 1 Tub Is $15 Like That? Like Chocolate Cornflakes won't it be fun? There's maybe no buyers of it? Mother maybe too tired to make it? She's 70 Years Old Already, Then My Life Is Still Like This? I have to be going "cleaning training" for real it seems like that since all quiet about this. I need the energy as I will be going Catatonic many times, wondering if I can work as fact. But Doctors knew this, then I wonder when doctors will speak to me other than "just eat medicine"? I really want informations like: making business, soulmates meet-up, grandfather's idea of business, jobs that's really not backpain cleaning, it's 1 Month of Probation isn't it Long Too?
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