I Still Think There Should/May Be A Story In Public About Me, It's Weird If Like None, But I Think Doctor Is True At The Same Time It's Really "No Problem" And Just Have To Live Life Normally. I Wonder What's Settling My Life.
I Don't Think Anyone Cares So Much About Being Difficult To Move Sometimes, I Think It's Already Bad To Be Just Imagining My Life To Become Worse As Nobody Understands, Maybe Doctors Didn't Prioritize Me At All As A Patient. Crazy People Like Still Exist At The Same Moment Too, I Wonder Why, In Chatroom. But if the Hacked People End Up Becoming My Friends, They're Just Jealous The "Victims" Didn't Report Anything Because Nothing Missing or Ruined In The Computer As Fact, Means No Theft Was Done And They Are Still The Same Richness Just Knowing A Type of Hacker Exist.
I Don't Know To Believe People Don't Know How To Hack As Real Or Not, Like Hologram "Is Something Difficult", I Really Feel No Pleasure In My Life Hearing Everything Back Then My Mother Simply Just Say "Don't Think of the Past" Like I Have No Memories.
They Didn't Care How My Life Became Different and I Have Nobody Because Of Someone Said Stuff That I Hear Back As Voice-Memory, Then My Loss in Life is Losing A Normal Support In My Life, Really To Believe Someone Got To Ruin My Life As the Reality? Doctors Didn't Mind Too I Think, Means Actually They Just Have Their Goal For An Outcome From Me Instead, They Really Never Cared My Life And Didn't Get To Know Of The Pain if Really Felt By Me Or Not To Just Demand To Work. I Think They Really Can Become A Stupid Caretaker Just Being Around As Family, Means They Maybe Want To Believe Like Sweetest Revenge is Becoming Someone Better, That's All.
My Life Gone For 17 Years, Then It's Like Schizophrenia Instead, I Am Reminded of The Attacks How Small Girl I Didn't Beat Up Continued Trying To Take Advantage and Injure My Life Experiences, A lot of Experiences Gone I Really Don't Want Her In My Life Journey. Means I Really Never Want To Talk To Her Anymore, But Schizophrenia I Can Forget And Maybe Still Talk To Her Again.
I Don't Know Why Such Level of Attacks Exist In My Life, It Ruin All The Nice Feelings I Should Have, It's Just Something I Can Never Forgive.
Nobody Reminded Me Of My Life With (A) Should've Continued Too, Then Maybe Interfered By Psychic Of "May Become A Mastermind" For Money, Then Psychic Didn't Let Me Have My Life Of Feeling Less Pain Too Other Than From Medicine, Even Now I Think Of Jobclub. There's Nothing Worth It In Life - I Only Achieved A lot of Zikir Like "Ya Hayyu" 100k Times and Memorizing Asma-Ul-Husna, Then It's The Same Feeling and Life Experience, The Happiness Did Not Bring Me Anywhere Greater In Life Experiences. Nobody Applaud or Give Me Anything For Doing Such Thing To Decrease The Pain In My Life. It's Really Common Sense That They Should Stop Adding Pain In My Life But Doctor Didn't Tell It's Physical Pain(Catatonia).
Nobody Cares About Me Like How I Live My Life All Alone With Nothing Kind Of Strength To Achieve Life Goals, I Become A Useless Man That Just Waits For Money From The Government(C.D.C and Assurance Package), They Let The Suffering Of Thinking As Life Stuck Continues, They Really Just Doing Normal Expenditures of Food, Drink and Medicine Really Nothing Special Before In My Life. Even Hari Raya My Family Never Gave Me Any Money, Normality Ruined Into Other Initiative That They Believe As Good, Then I've Grown Up They Still Treating Me Like A Small Kid, Means I Still Can't Be Feeling Truly Free With Catatonia.
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