It's like a repeat posting?

Did I lost my memory? Every 6 mths issit I will lose memory, it's like I have ever posted face of (S) before, I usually should have something to write anyway, maybe it's really memory loss, lately I kept experiencing like forgetting what to do on Android, but I take medications still, so I don't know what's wrong, maybe the medicine is fighting something for this situation, usually maybe I would totally loss my memory and eyes turn white as eyeballs rolled upwards.

I really forgot what to write about, I remembered about "Top Hacker's Database Editor" Job workers, the boyfriends of small girl, 1 day when it happen, doctors said I would buy them 2 pants, 2 ankle level cargo pants, 2 long sleeve t shirts, black t-shirt(if they want to work dishwasher or to wear at home), then maybe a black jacket too because it's cheap. If doctors say that I will really spend for them such stuff, means actually "money is not a problem" is real in my life in future? This also means I will have a job already? I know it's something like that to keep my top workers knowing what guys like to wear. I'm really having this kind of future? Means the small girl really found her 2nd boyfriend yet or not? They still like together because they added me during the same moments at Plato. I wonder what will happen, I wonder if it's real love and real heartbreak or not too, because schizophrenia is real pain and real hotness then her boyfriend have to endure such thing because of small girl? Is it really worth it? I just wonder like if the small girl knew that she would receive like a karma or retribution, does she know she will break up first but she really revenging and searching for the doer of her boyfriend, means she maybe the one that's in love and understand what I've gone through. I'm just lucky someone revenge but not to her, but her boyfriend instead, it's also due to because maybe she just in a mood to do like a "perang" couple di dunia, dont know her energy or why she's like that, dont even know if she remembers, just my luck like that suddenly nampak prangai merepek bdk kecik.

I really remembered again, it's like 1 year then my mother is giving me money, not 6 mths, I wonder who will give me at 6 mths because I'm in really panic about life, why in my memory have such thing like doctors will give? Why if it's a dream I have to remember this way?

They really making me suffer for 6 mths more without money? I guess so, their rule is like that maybe, just my luck to become thinking of money continuously like this, maybe it's because of panic and worry on a matter that I become memory loss?

I also remember I ever dream of a cat when I think I'm going out of body, and then I really want a white cat to care since baby, I really hope my life becomes different and having a pet that I can care, like not disgusting their manure to clear up? My sister have a cat but looks okay about it, I think somehow I will learn to be okay about it? I wonder what kind of man I will become if care a cat. I remember in my memory I have been wanting a cat kind of feelings then suddenly I can't remember the feelings, maybe it's bad to have a pet? I feel like buying a hamster now talking about this, but it would be difficult to care too, I need time that's all. I've been wanting to care a pigeon since baby days too, like have a pet that always flies back to me will be nice. Like what kind of happiness will happen to me?

I just feel like a blog if a long writing then it's worth it, the rest in my heart happens when I write something, it's maybe I'm listening to the voices like replays causing me to write stuff becomes a nicer feelings. I don't know why I feel like this, maybe it's schizophrenia that I hope psychic understands, I don't like to feel uneasy something in my life.