Medicine finishing maybe

Feel bad maybe it's because medicine finishing from inside body? The heat like existing again, I feel I should take the eating ownself type of medicine because injection is a long time at the end of the month.

I think I will do well this time, I hope my body can manage without benztropine too but if finger moves about I will still tell doctor. I really think if I take medicines on time I can evade the heating up body moment, I really think I must do this change too. Injections can be painful sometimes then it can disrupt my working intent or plan, I really hope I won't be warded because of changing medicine.

Maybe it's the finishing medicine causing like memory loss, the impact is real like I kept being blurry again, then once change medicine it's finally I can maintain a stronger health every month, I really hope I do well this time, it's hard thinking about money too, then medicine finishing and my body like being heated up again, it's so many times this schizophrenia sickness, it will be gone by 38 years old, I hope it's true. When I remember again doctor like ever said "December I'm not supposed to recover yet", if it's not this year, maybe it's next year, maybe January 2027 I will recover? When I think properly it sounds like I will recover late 38 years old, I hope it's just in the middle, maybe if I recover December 2026 then the medicine just support the rest of my life? My neighbours still take medications so it's weird if I'm the first to be stopped taking medications. I was a yearly at ward kind of life, this year it feels different, I maybe supposed to be warded multiple times each year? This year I finish December smoothly? Wow.

I read about being alone will change me into something new, it's been 16 years alone, then it's 6 mth I changed into someone better for 32 times? I really hope it's something like that. I really don't want to suffer in life.

I have plans about the LOOK Bicycle that I bought, I think I ever told doctor I want to add gearing type to it, like it definitely will be nicer? If not just making it an e-bike too? I really feel I need to write something long enough that satisfies my readers to keep showing me someone reads, I feel so alone in my life blogging is still the best solution.