Tomorrow is the day I will request doctor to change my medicine into eating type, I think it's called oral medicine, then I don't have to suffer from injections anymore, it's close to 1 month my left arm still hurts.
I'm at Day 136 outside ward on medications and +48 = Total of 184 Days on medications, I've really passed 6 months and still no money like expectation of support and celebration of my smooth medicine intake.
I just spend anyway just now because I really feel hotness and craving for cig., I really hope doctors support me in a way by calculation of cutting cig. instead of making me stop right away, I understand a special smoker is something like that "stopping immediately", it's really hard to feel healthier and more stable if I stop immediately, I really hope someone support me with money, it's really harsh this life. I'm really not expecting anything from (S) about money as I don't want to become a bad man that asks someone for money, it's only to last until February, so I hope someone really help me by telling my family about this.
My Simba data usage is 127mb/400gb, it makes me happy whenever I write of data because Simba makes me feel so rich because of so much data given for the phone line subscription, it's impossible that I would cut this number my entire life, I really feel like psychic is real like not an Intel about what number will exist or what company will exist then selecting number themselves, I really feel psychic is real. Means I truly feel like my doctors will support me with money during my "cleaning training" or even tomorrow hopefully. My life really feel like ending or deadmeat kind of panic and rush, having to wait until February for G.S.T/Assurance Package that is still not known of getting it or not.
Just now I dropped my cig. box about 19 sticks inside out of 20, then I found it half of road cross path, I'm really lucky about it, I feel like it happened before and it feels like "Suntricity" is real, it can happen the same thing many times, I didn't use bag just now and only my pockets.
It's really harsh if doctors or my family will truly make me endure until February I hope they don't do such thing because doctors definitely knows, I really wish for support of doctors.
Yesterday the feeling of remembering (W), (S), (A) during baby days like exist, it's like all I knew before when they were babies, it's weird it have to be like this. I remember of 1 of my photo that looks like 1 of doctor of I.M.H, I don't know why I became to look so thin - The bald doctor.
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