Simba data tomorrow

Wow. I made myself happy again by looking at this, I can't imagine I will be 1 year using this 1 day, then it's my lifetime number.

I think I have calculated it will be until February next month, then $30 is 3 times and Feb($10)- Mar($10)-Apr($10)-May I'm really happy can last before the month of my birthday, I really hope I have money to make it last until 1 year, I'm saving up for this I guess, I really want to feel completing 1 year of it. I remember doctor ever said I will be warded in readiness of having a phone but I really hope I won't be warded again, I wonder why it's like that, what will make me not take medications if it's a hot feelings? Maybe doctor was creating statement "if warded" instead. Means doctor knew I will still be using this number and have a phone already. It's been so many years since I last used a phone number, the previous one was not counted because I lost memory of it. I really hope life becomes easier and I get a job faster than I should. If $69 - $30 = $39, for May - Aug(1 year of using Simba), can I really last $39 Until 2nd February? I hope I can then my $36/week to save for RG477V. It's still before my birthday maybe I will get it, I really just want it to fill my empty days without anything to do in life. I wonder if I will in the end Solat again, I hope I do, because it actually create me to have a peaceful sleep I think. I really want to be at least normal again in life.

I post due to boredom and waiting for my mother to come back for "Waker Chicken"(I hope she bought this) I remembered the shop's name already. She went out around 1.30p.m, then I imagine 1 hour at there, maybe she will reach here around 4.30p.m or 5p.m. I'm really hungry now and hope tomorrow will be smooth and no stomach ache inside the bus. I really want a smooth ride as usual every morning.

As I smoke so little only 6 sticks today I also hope it creates memories of my life to come back too. I kept forgetting I must quit cig. so doctor help me about (S), she's my only energy of life I have, without her I feel like I'm dead, if she had seen or touched a naked man I also feel I'm dead, I really don't want her ruined, life with schizophrenia top-up the difficulty of getting her, then with my parents not giving money also topped-up another difficulty, so it's really 3 difficulty including not having her number, is 4 difficulties to get her, life's so harsh on me, I really hope I get the Guinness World Record for being the Most Patient Person for real like doctor said. Someone have to know what I feel is bad and it's too hard on me like this, I don't know why they don't see it a different way like how someone that's not so rich actually gives money to their kids to have a life and they even can get married and have children, it's so hard like this I am thinking like a small kid. I hope Popeyes decided to hire me faster if read this is cool too, because may decide to hire me faster from I.M.H, I really want to work and the pain to end away.