Is this the last again?

Is this going to be the last time I smoke again? I hope it is real this time, just $69 is not nice way of life, I'm really wanting to quit it feels like a high score thing to do in life, means today I smoked only 6 in total, I have done so many "last time" but psychic still not telling me which one is my last time. I'm suddenly reminded about (S) that doctor would help me get with her if I quit smoking, his reason is about "if have baby, baby will be sick" even if me and (S) never lovely to each other before, it's weird.

I really have no mood to watch anime, and I've done reading Iqra just now, I wonder why my life became this way like a lot of nothing to do, people have something to do in life like work, then usually people just earn to pay about house and bills and food, this kind of people is like my father really lucky to have normal health in life, even at 73 years old he still works, I wonder what age he will stop working.

I'm finally done, I have no more cigs. smoked my last one while writing this I paused awhile to smoke.

My only energy of quitting is really if doctor will help me to get (S), she needs to make herself easier for me because I'm like a dead soul without her, I'm in love with her like crazy then she don't know the meaning of love? It's too long I'm way too old, then she's also old 36 years old this year, then doesn't this mean we should get together? It's already too hard to get a partner unless a girl.

I just now watched fun videos of RG477V able to play PC Games and it looks entertaining, I really think after DS is the last RG477V console and I believe doctor about it, unless the making another HORI for it. My language became like about games fluent people, DS is Dual-Screen, HORI is Horizontal. Games really makes kids learn English easily knowing which is vertical and horizontal. Games are good in my opinion.

I hope today my mother buy the chilli sauce chicken, as I'm really missing it. Then I even hope my nenek gives me money hahaha, but it's a fat hope like something that's not going to happen because I don't work yet, I don't know who else can make my life lighter unless the people that have said to help create my life lighter by giving me money. Life's too heavy, and they don't smoke luckily, I think I'm really going to stop smoking this time and swallow the vibrations even if it's bad for my head? Then I will be seeing things in my vision that's not funny or stabilizing me at all. I just have to cope with life like that? It's hopefully not more than 30 days of pain, I truly hope to quit smoking before I work at Popeyes anyway, I really think I can do it this time, but doctors even if know they won't tell me too, I wonder why answers is a heart-relief but they don't treat it like that, but just about "character build-up" that I may become lazy as keeps knowing about my life.

I think I'm going to try watching Boruto now episode 71, hopefully it's something new this time, I'm just too bored in life that it becomes painful.