1st day of earning money done!

It's great I finally becoming someone better but will get my money in March, it totals to $144 only but I think it's enough.

Today is Day 172 out of ward on medications and total of 220 days on medications, just 20 days more and I'm 2/3 phase done for 1 year of medication.

I'm currently inside bus writing this blog, so I won't write my Simba data usage yet, but I feel normal today, I got to use my data like normal people, I'm happy being a Simba user.

Schizophrenia recovery looks and imagined as really tough, I remember have people being cured before I really want to be 1 of them, I hope the 2nd year I will recover from schizophrenia and become a healthy person. It's harsh hearing voices I wonder why it can become like this, a human brain memory by listening to the conversation that ever happened, is it like a trauma even? I thought only trauma will keep replaying back in mind, schizophrenia symptom 1 of it is "scared of people" but I'm not scared of people I think, I wonder why such feelings can exist, I remember if I take too much medicine then I become like "scared of people".

I'm still in Sengkang now the bus is slow and steady I don't know if I'm buying Western Food today because usually my mother don't cook as it's Monday, she really cooks late. I feel like going ntuc to buy Chilli Tunas too, but I think there's still no rice at home, yesterday I became very happy as I drank a nice drink my father bought, it's yellow colour like Kickapoo, the taste of nice drink in my throat been a long time, I really forgot what the drink is called, maybe it's schizophrenia symptom of memory loss too? I can't be forgetting this easily.

Right now my bus is beside (A)'s house there's like a clear mind occured in my brain, I recover a little bit, just being close to her, it's like (S) can give me a total recovery when she's around.