Why the voices?

I'm still recovering from Schizophrenia and it's been so long, I've reached so many days just 21 more days left and it's 2/3 of a year done, I'm truly happy I've been taking medicines for this long, I hope it ends sooner but doctors the one that decide when I will stop taking medications, I really want to be cured from schizophrenia and wondering why it's like years instead of a fixed date of recovery, if doctor had confirmed me needing medicine more than 1 year how come I calculate my recovery thinking it's only 1 year of taking medications? The voices sometimes make up an information that makes me happy, sometimes repeat demands that makes me angry, I really don't know how to skip all of it in my life and live like a reset of voices statement, it's like everything been set for me to hear them.

I'm happy my mother told me she topup for me $50 for my EZ-link it means just nice a total of 1 month of February then I will receive my salary for working in February. I really hear voices of doctor really giving me an RG477V and everytime jobclub there seem to be no doctors around, I also remember voices of being given money but nobody talks about money, I think I just have to wait and see if I really will survive myself alone on Salary that's nothing but 3hrs/day kind of job. If March I work 3days a week, it's $216 for the month, still not enough for RG477V as I using a broken spectacle and need to change it. I feel like I would be working the short hours for quite long instead of Popeyes hiring me faster sadly, I wonder why it's like that taking so long to hire me, I really want to get this done and stop thinking of money already.

My parents seem not giving me money at all I wonder why in life I have to experience endurance multiple times, it's sad and harsh having to endure so many times I wonder why it's like that my life. (S) or my soulmate not helping me with money too sadly I just have to survive as a man even if I have schizophrenia requiring support of others to live my life. They really created me very childish like thinking of money even at this age 37.5 years old, it's so long to be happy at 38 years old as the said age of my happiness, 6 months is a long time, now it's February I really just have 5 more months to go and see what kind of happiness it is, I hope it happens faster because my 2nd sister ever said in car "to make my happiness faster than 38 years old" then like nothing still until now, maybe doctor is the one that said it right, I imagine it as late 38 years old reaching 39 years old then I'm happy is too much like scary life.

There's no talk of license yet so I wonder when is it, but anyway at least I'm guaranteed to be working at Popeyes around May or June, it's so long but at least something. It's knowledge of future still, it's really bad making me think of money so long in my life, I wonder when is it ending, I really hope I can last this money until March too, but I will receive money by March making me happy again, luckily it's always close the income to rescue me from my poor situation.

I really have no one contacting me again in my life, been 219 days on medications and nobody contacted me yet, really doctors needed to connect me to my friends? Why my friends doesn't connect themselves and they all really forgotten about me? I wonder who (S) in touch with her Instagram maybe have a lot of friends, then she maybe busy using her Instagram in life. I wonder what her cat post is about but she didn't reply me there too, I really hope something of her post is really about me that's like a sign I can wait on like a hope to get her to become my wife. I really feel so helpless and hopeless and she's not making it easier for me too, living her life in secrets I wonder why is my message not important to her at all? She really only want a blog to write about her and send message to her? Why is she being like this and not just sms or Whatsapp me? It's cheap right anyway? At least she's living her life normally then me in a struggle to live happily? Why is it so unfair?