Tomorrow Work!

It's 6.35pm now, soon will be sleeping hours then tomorrow work, I'm so lonely I read a lot of merepek writings about loving (S) I thought we're both orphans at that time and I thought we're unique to be couple of each other. I even thought Dragon and Snake is symbol of God and Goddess, why there's no story like Goddess exist, why Allah is only 1 and won't he be feeling lonely? It's weird to have the Creator as 1 Solo Soul that lived for so long creating planets etc. and function of the world like planets orbit around, why is he alone and dont get married? How He knows someone that is wanting marriage if He is a solo soul, I can't be like Him solo all the way then I need my (S) but still He didn't give her to me. If true Lailatul Qadar wish will be granted isn't it like I prayed for(to get) (S) everyday each Ramadan since 6 years old? Why is (S) like this to me, will my wish be granted?

I really feel like buying the Ayatul Kursi necklace to feel about remembering Allah and protection, it just feels nice if I will have it, maybe by March I will buy it, it's only $6+. Wearing accessory will be cool, I just need something that's believed as Power but then remembering Psychic and Wali Allah exist, will it be meaningful to have the necklace then? What will Ayat Kursi being a necklace on me do for me? I really wish for it I hope I don't forget about it.

I wonder if I will be okay tomorrow morning because I ate like a lot today, but not much, maybe yesterday's food haven't come out yet hahaha. I hope I don't need the toilet too early in the morning.