I'm so lazy to download, then maybe just taking it like buying a memory card with games maybe, I really hope I plan something, it's about buying the R36S.
I will have 2 consoles maybe then it's still fun until I figure out a solution for RG477V or after I got a computer to learn something awhile on how to settle it. I hope no one will get angry I bought a $300+ console then don't use it yet, haha. Funny my life.
It feels really heavy this medicine maybe is the cause of suicidal feeling making me have allergy on it as fact that's unspotted, the itch maybe from the medicine itself, but no rashes I guess I'm fine still, maybe it worked a little bit because I can still go to work.
3mths+ to go to wait that going into ward doesn't happen again, then when I told my mother about I go to ward yearly she lied instead saying it's twice only, then I have no comforting talk too, maybe causing me to feel more suicidal, don't know why parents love to lie. Maybe it's okay if I don't puasa everytime because they lie everytime too.
I asked my mother about doctor saying about soldier job but she don't talk about the topic, they all just want me to not believe doctors anymore I guess, there's really nothing interesting in my life from my parents, it's everyday the same thing, they pretend like nothing happened and talks about something else in my question, I find that talking to my mother like creating myself more stupid because of the anger feelings that she likes to give, something like heat, then it's suicidal, I don't think they care anyway if I die, because they don't let me get the kind of life I wish for.
I feel like a stupid person now writing blog because nobody cares or to imagine it's someone old that don't understand as the reader instead. Where is doctor anyway why he won't help me out in this?
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