Today I dreamt of Sakinah, she was in All-Girls School and we all were exploring abandoned structures. 1 Indian girl liked me then that's all. It's a long dream I can't remember all of it. I still mumble her name sometimes it's sad I have to feel this way, it reminds me of Wahdiah and Shahridah I used to mumble their names too at random moments that I really don't know.
I'm happy it's March already then there's only 3 months left to June. Estimated to get Job latest is by May because April will be working 3days a week, mid March is the discussion for job placement I hope it's as early as that. It's really harsh to become someone that is having difficulty to earn money, schizophrenia really created me to be unlucky.
I hear voices just now inside my pillow like communicating to my mind agreeing to what I think, "tu ah" is what I heard, a female voice, I really wonder what to do I forgot the entire long dream.
Another dream is my Mother carried me to sit on her shoulder like I'm a kid.
Today I think I'm going to download Fight Night Round 3 on my console and hope I have fun with the new console.
It's already 250 days on medication and I have 115 days left to become 1 year on medication. My days outside ward been 202 streak and I not sent into ward again for a long time, it's almost 1 year outside ward just 163 days left, it's sad it feels like only half days done but I'm really okay it's definitely more than 30 days so it's not half.
My O.T confirmed with me next week will discuss job placement, I truly hope I get a good job. I think that's all I have to write for now. I'm eating so hungry.
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