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It's 12.19p.m, at 12.35p.m bus I will reach 25mins earlier so I plan to take a bus much later, I still feel like rushy and panic and I don't like it, I hope I complete job smoothly today like yesterday and 2 days ago, if doctor claimed I can work if I take medications and no cigarettes I really hope I can. Today I only smoke 4 rolls of tobaccos storm king brand, i really smoke much lesser than I supposed to. I hope people help me tell my workplace to have psychic to tell my reasons of feeling bad at workplace, yesterday I just go home at 7.35p.m anyway despite knowing the clock is 5 mins earlier but I had to feel better like that, it's only 5 mins extra of money I wonder how much it will become in my salary, I plan it to be always like that unless someone tell me it's 5 mins earlier then I will be fine. I have about 14 mins left to go down, because 12.35p.m is the bus that reach 25mins earlier.

No doctors call me today to update me about my job energy, it's going to be the same today about saving money in case world war, it's really harsh but they really doing this to me, I want to feel good in life but after I.M.H ward I was in jobclub then now suddenly working hard already, it's tough but I have to believe doctor I will be successfully taking home $1400 due to going all of the working days except PH and Off day, I just feeling weird and angry doctors don't tell me stuff because of "character build-up" as reason, I don't believe such thing, I feel happiness is something good to be energized at workplace but they are like this to me. I really hope I do well at work today until 7.35p.m again, it's such an angry thing to be feeling this way but work is meant to be boredom and anger anyway.

I hope Sakinah contact me but they know I will tell I feel like quitting job, then Sakinah knew it but still she don't want to believe she's my soulmate, it's really harsh I feel like this I want to feel lighter.