At least my data is moving like a normal people's life.
Today I'm working, 2nd day of the week, I didn't get kicked out and I hope doctor call me to tell me that I don't skip work anymore, I really need energy of psychic, I know what this means that I won't skip work anymore to gain the full month salary at work. In total I have worked here for 3 days and I'm happy about it.
Sakinah don't seem to pity me, but it's world war money anyway to collect and save, today is my last day of cigarette so I will get my salary, it's really harsh but I tried the "fix body, mind, bank" then doctor didn't give my allowance, I tried exercise daily to fix my body, I take medicines daily to fix my mind, and my bank by working at jobclub, but doctor didn't help me at all. I'm let to suffer thinking of money.
I don't know why I can't communicate with Sakinah, she really set a boundary for no reason, doctor became a barrier by saying if have babies, babies will be sick maybe making an assumption that I would rape her, it's so sudden to think of babies, something I would be happy about then it got spoken anyway, means doctor is making relationship as Haram in my religion as priority, so that Sakinah stay far away when I don't even rape her. It's in M.R.T how can I even rape her, I wasn't even thinking of rape. It's just too bad for me they talk this manner instead of helping me get on relationship with her.
I have about 4 hours to go till I go work, but it have to be like this collecting money in case world war, I really must work hard like I do, it's really heavy thinking of Sakinah at work then she didn't lighten me up like energize me by contacting me, I think Hisyammuddin was luckier, his girl met him up at workplace, I'm so unlucky voices of Alysha, then PH miss 2× salary, I really don't know my future as doctor didnt tell me, all I imagine is him being right that I go to work all the time after PH, I really hope he's right too.
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