Maybe I hear voices at night then I dream, it's weird yesterday I hear games sounds I thought my nephew play games or bought a new game, the scary feelings appear again so I feel better already, I wonder why I hear sounds of games, it's like the song: "I know I should sleep but the voices in my head goes ..(sounds)", it's really like that the game sounds.
Today I woke up at 8.30a.m I took medicine then shower, I'm reminded of I.M.H days at shower I feel lazy and tired, I think it's symptom of too little cigarettes, it makes lazy to shower but I shower anyway just now.
I have my own Spotify playlist now, after 20+ years I finally use Android like a normal person, if not I was using small mp3 player to listen to songs, it's really sad how my life is different but I remember that Cristiano Ronaldo was a poor life too then he achieved so many and his lucky children get to feel the better life of his, the successful one. I wonder why my family don't mind I live a poor life I feel it's like unfair they rather I live a poor life than having money. It's really crazy I miss life experiences so long ago and I finally catching up, ever since August last year I'm supposed to be using Spotify maybe, but I don't know my head is not well I guess. At Spotify I listen to mixture of techno, jiwang, English songs, motivation music, Indonesian songs, zikir, selawat, doa, as my mix of songs. I really became energetic having Spotify, it's so old but survive so long in the world of android, I'm happy have something like this in my life.
At 5+a.m in the morning, when I dreamt, I have 9 viewers of my post, I wonder who visit me frequently everyday, I really wish for my old friends to appear again in my life including primary school ones to keep in touch again, but I'm reaching 40 years old soon, it's so late, I don't have a child too, not normal for someone my age. I'm waiting for some energy to go A.T.M to take out money to buy chicken chop with tomato rice today, it's been so long I havent eaten something nice but I'm happy about it like Ustaz Harun say "takde duit makan Maggie sudah" hahaha. I guess this is the life that my family pick for me, it made me want to eat Maggie instead of buying chicken chop tomato rice too, hahaha. I have the $5 CDC voucher to use for it but I guess to save it for tomorrow then.
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