"19, 5, 18, 5, 18" Viewers

My previous posts like this, the number of readers are unknown from where or whoever really thinking of me daily, it just feels like it could be a different person, but the habit of readers are like the same, it usually doesn't grow but first time post and it stays like that, crawling up in numbers isn't something common or regular in my posts.

Today I learnt 2 new words from post of Ustaz Harun "Riadah" and "Zaujah", haha, I don't know why but my malay is so bad I need to Google it, then the other one is Arabic language. 

I kept checking Facebook updates of "Ustaz Harun, Crow Yuzree and Rudy Marican" and TikTok of Zoe Lim, klay.hole and lycheelahalamak1 for interesting videos. The thing about schizophrenic that don't admit as schizophrenic reminds me of myself in the old days, maybe taking medicine late or skipping medicine, made me like that.

Today I slept and woke up about 12+a.m to smoke 1 stick then I'm writing this post now, it's really boring my life like got nothing to do everyday. I wait for the microphone to fill my life into happiness of old days with my 2nd sister and her ex-husband, by watching Karaoke videos on Star Maker and sing them, the first song I want to sing will be "Sepenuh Hati" because it reminds me of my love that I am always shy about then didn't know I actually have expressed my love already due to panic of losing her if I don't try anything.

I hope it will be wonderful feelings after singing the song like nostalgic moment started right on that day because of microphone feelings.