Another Cycle of Suspense

It's an entire day today waiting for litterbug hunter, if they will come, it's really bad I really imagine the shift means "her turn" then it means "will have someone knocking door to talk about cigarette plastic", wonder why they go to the extent of checking fingerprints, I'm so unlucky in my life.

First it's Alysha, then it's Schizophrenia, then it's Litterbug Hunter to worry about, it's just neverending, I really hope its over but then I worry about Wednesday and Thursday maybe her shift at Woodlands I imagine, it's really unlucky for me that it's like this, I really don't know what to do they just cause me panic and worry of going into ward again.

Today is another no peace week, can't be energetic about plans to study for O levels, it's really harsh.

I really don't know what to do, it feels like it won't end until doctor call me to comfort me that he's settling it for me. It's unnecessary to go into ward, I took medicine daily 7-7.30a.m around this timing, if late I will still write in my blog, it's like 8-8.30a.m if late still the same timing as in ward.

I have until afternoon and the most stress moment is around 10a.m-3p.m the ease and peace is around 4p.m, its really not nice, I should study Law and settle this "lack of understanding", it's like a neglecting of heart or mind care, people can become smoking a box of cigarette instead, then waste money just like that when supposedly quitting cigarette it becomes worse due to anger can be removed from smoking. It's really bad.