Friday, May 22, 2026

Calculated Studying Items + Life

Just the desk is $9.99, then chair is $9.90 but I maybe use my bed as chair instead, then $14+ the English essay examples, maybe about $2 mechanical pencil and $2 foolscap paper = it's easily just $28+, I definitely want my room to be better, but if include the chair is $38+, it's really cheap. I don't know why I feel energetic to study like Chinese people, "learning first before next year", I think that's what they do.

When I think again, maybe it's August then I do this, but it may still be next month because it's C.D.C Voucher for use, I want to be confident in doing my O levels.

This year I don't really waste my money and I'm happy about it. It's just cheap t-shirt each costs $4, about 4 = $16 wasted but still can be used as homewear if want.

I really don't know what will happen, will I even be smart at all, will I score high at all? Will I become like Zoe Lim that bought A level books then not study anymore "because no money for private A", whatever it is I think her parents definitely would pay for her if she wishes to do the exam, it's really weird I don't believe she flung her O level when she can do A level and buying the books, haha, I wonder as schizophrenic moments I maybe lie or say wrong things a lot too. I even thought I'm in a school when I'm in my room, I thought that I'm a schoolmate of "Beverly Hills College", something like that, it's really crazy I wonder why they doing like this to me, why Alysha knows so much old people's stuff to talk and lie to me, it's really her voice sadly, I thought I'm a Millionaire and Billionaire can buy Land and Farm just by sharing to Facebook, it's really sad during schizophrenia a lot of delusion but because believed the girl, wonder what made her talk so much pain, I'm so unlucky in my life maybe I wouldn't feel too hot from anger and be a nicer feeling even when schizophrenic, if she don't exist, doctors really didn't help me out and I guess she's been forgiven by doctor for what she said? Really madness. So lucky attack so much yet get away with it. The impact is real on a schizophrenic, then maybe she just take advantage of knew it then taking the chance to escape from constantly making Dina cry at that time, it's really bad. Shes so weak yet attack so much just because knowing no one would beat her up like a gangster.

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