Today the voices still exist but softer, it feels like there's a blockage of sounds or voices on my right ear so I like hear the voices coming from the left(the fan), it's really weird to be a person "hearing voices", like why I hallucinate and experience this pain, it's just small voices of Alysha's, she speak when it's painful in my heart and brain causing me to remember it by hearing the voices.
It feels like no one in my family is like a counsellor to tell my parents to just support me with money anyway because I need to search for the girl that I love, I need to save money anyway, haha, my life is really bad luck, then Alysha ate our family because everyone was being kind and caring to her, it's really sad to live so long and Dina still haven't received a penalty amount from Alysha, don't know why my parents didn't fight Alysha until like that but maybe it's for the peace between neighbours, it's really bad she didn't feel pressured to save money and give Dina, and also can't expect her parents to give money anyway because it's her fault.
I realized that every morning I've been writing about the counting of days out of ward and on medication then nobody talked to me still, life is so boring nobody cares, tomorrow is the 2nd business day of counselling to call, then it's Thursday tomorrow, then maybe Friday they will call, but hopefully Thursday and it settles quickly.
My parents in Batam on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, so my father will probably pick up Club Heal's call at Batam, I hope it settles easily and I can be more than happy to go search for Sakinah by myself as I don't know where's OCBC, it's just a boring life then she really didn't effort like me, her weekends not spent for me at all. It's really sad.
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